siao already.

sumthing's super wrong with blogger. issit jus me or wad? i can't upload any pic, even in other computers..

*mini golfing, + sick+ note to my friend*

I dunno what's wrong with freaking blogger, it jus can't seems to upload my pics.

i'll load it once the problem dismiss.

it's now , 6 in the morning, i'm awake since 5am, due to the discomfort in my tummy, the pain and the bloatedness, after much consideration, i've decided to take mc, it's one of the things i hate to fdo most cos despite of being sick, i've to wake up extra early to call night sister, and wait till 7am, to call morning sister.. and get a hearing from them. it's cotradicting, i thought when u're sick u're suppose to rest?

hmmm.. anyway, tummy discomfort started like ytd before the minigolf session with the roomates..


...............Minigolf @ Liliput.


i didn't know their exsistence till ytd, thanx to SY and gang who organise this trip there ytd, it's actually at East coast Big splash, Adult is 18 bucks.. it's worth the money man. cos we stayed there practically half a day.. hhaha jus completing 18holes.

it's really quite fun and exciting.. gets a bit tiring though...







after that , we went to ate at KFC, then that's when my giddiness and headache starts, thereafter we took a cab to Tampiness mall for TRANSFORMERS.! woo hoo.. the whole movie was super shaky, but nice, soooo in love with Bumble bee. i'm sure Hubby Tan is too.. it's he's 2nd time watching this movie.


he's dream is to buy that car. the chevolet Camaro
shouting to hubby tan : make it come true then !

after that, we went back home.. and hubby tan sayang me all the way cos of my tummy discomfort and headache.

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To my friend,

sometimes, life is full of surprises that is good in a way if u look at it,

certain things happened for a reason..

life is full of choices and decisions..

that will affect ur path.. in the future and now..

cherish it, for u only have it once

love it , while u have it now.

don't regret when it's gone.

let this be a lesson for u .. to grow even stronger and mature..

i love u no matter what decision u made

friend. =)




hubby tan, i love u more and more as days passes by..

*hetic *, luvs

In just a twink of eye, my 2 days off jus pass by and i've been back to the ward for 2 days, tml i'm off again..=)

.. firstly.. wanna thank chong who treat us ! Thai food, thai express at plaza sing.. was quite nice.. and cheap too! unfortunately no pics, nobody actually brought camera to take picture..

was tempted to buy things from cotton on, and etude, but i stopped myself la.. to waste unecessary money.. *yay*

back to the ward, sometimes i really think that, the room i'm in charge in, Room 24, is really cursed, it's super hetic again..

the first day i went back to work after my rest day, i was Pm shift, i took over from another staff who was relatively new, i can understand that she'll need more time to adapt .. but, it's too much for me to handle, i've to do changes for both morning and afternoon .. so . who's gonna help me?
i believe it's all about prioritising, if u can't set ur priorities right, u can't work accordingly and u will never finish work on time ever, no matter how senior u are.

that's how i learn, to do the more impt changes first.. thanx to kak yan who taught me that. =)

on that day, i had 3 empty beds, that means new admissions.. i have 3 sick patients, 1 is active, it's excatly the same as the previous sick patient i had who recently passed on.. his skin is super bad, to the extent that it'll tear once u move it.. literally skin tear.. he's wrapped up with jelonet the whole body.. he's super sick.

i'm so stressed that i really feel like jus walking out of the ward and tell sister i'm not feeling well... that stressed! i wanted to cry already, but realised that crying won't solve any problem and running away from problem is not a solution.. so i grit my teeth and work.

with God's grace, i managed to finish my work on time! and my patients were all safe and sound.. Praise the lord!

i have to say , that there's no quality of care delivered to patients, if we have lack of staff.. the thing is we just wanna make sure that we finish our work on time and we don't pass unecessary things to other colleagues , we jus rush thru our work.. and it will definetly affect our attitudes towards patients..

on the other hand, if we had more staff, which i experience before.. we'll have more patience and we'll deliver more precise and quality care to patients and we are able to attend to their needs..

this is one of the few problems we nurses face, always.. Lack of staff. i really hope that staffing will improve in the future... =)

today, i spent a wonderful cuddly cuddly day with hubby tan, i really hope there're more time spent like this with him.. =)

*lurves*


hubby tan, hunny koh miss u already now..

*spendthrift*

woohoo~

guess wad? i'm afternoon shift today, went to work and was asked to take leave for 2 days cos there's too many staff working today and tml~! anyway, i wasn't feeling very well too, had palpitation, and running nose and slight cough..
i was jus complaining to hubby tan that i haven got much rest and slp.. now i can slp all i want!

super happy!

oh ya, due to the excessive white hair appearing, and i've been receiving lots of irritating comments like,

" hey, u shld go dye ur hair , all ur white hair can be seen."
" have u been thinking alot recently?"
" are u stressed?"
" ur white hair are so visible.."

i've decided to dye my hair. and yes, i've done it..

GOodbye white hair!

=D nowadays i've been wondering shld i perm my hair, cos i look so boring, my hair is jus straight, can't do much bout it, so i consulted the hair dresser, upon seeing that i was so intereted in curling ,out of kindness , he help me to curl my hair temporarily, which really look nice..
but i've yet to decide whether to perm permanently..



recently, i've been spending uncontrollably, even though i'm really financially down. i must learn to control.. haiz, if not i can forget bout getting my car license, OR getting married, buying house and stuff..

i keep spending on unecessary stuffs like panties and bras, i get very super excited (don't think i'm a pervert pls) all the laces and patterns , it's jus so nice that i really wan them all.. though i can only wear one at a time.. hahah

.. when i see there's sales going on in La Senza or Cotton on..i wld automatically go into the shop, cos it all means, cheap lingeries.. and really nice wans.. not like those pasar malam kind.. but the thing is i have a lot of it already , i dun need to buy anymore..

things like body lotions, hand cream, lip balm and glosses, or mascara, i haven fininsh using one and yet i wanna buy some more, what's wrong with me,? i don't think there's any other girl as crazy and spendthrift as me..

my lip gloss collection (from left clinque, lancome, sally hansen, sasa, jap brand, maybelline)

my mascara collection ( from left, Etdude, Rimmel, Maybelline, fiberwig, bodyshop)

my creams ( from left top, sasa, ralph lauren, jergens, baby johnson, bodyshop, vaseline)

my lip balm collection ( palmer, vaseline..)
actually i still have alot i jus dunno where i place it..

*Valleri u have to stop spending like there's no tommorrow. *
somebody shld slap my face to ask me to wake up.




ytd, went out with loveliest,
to celebrate ranji belated bday and santhya's 17 bday.. went to vivo "Thai Accent" to eat .. quite nice , but super ex.. haha.. pictures are all with rumya, she hasn't uploaded yet..



Happy bday ranji and santhya!






i'm missing my hubby tan alot ..

plss vote for my sis!

.. i dunno how many ppl would actually read my blog.. but .. to ppl who read.. kindly vote for my sis ..=)) for the watson contest, she's in the healthy skin category..~!
vote for her~!!!

She's D2.. Shuyee


pretty? =)



*vote her*

thank u for supporting..

a long post..

past 2 days i was on owl shift.. and things didn't seem quite well for me..

first nite, i was feeling bit unwell.. 3 of my patient's oxygen level dropped below normal range, which gimme quite a scare.. .. tried to calm them down and gave them oxygen , finally it slowly picked up...

2nd nite, before going to work , had a huge quarrel with hubby tan which end up him leaving me at the junction of the road, going to work myself.. didn't felt good... it's my fault anyway, don't wish to elaborate, at the same time, i had diarrhea 5 times.. and felt super bloated.. dunno wad's wrong.. ok. now jus when i thought that it's all over.

when i stepped into the ward, i guess, i've brought the negativity aura to the ward , i've not yet started shift, my pt's maid came running to me telling me that pt has difficulty breathing and is having cold sweats. so i asked my colleague to check his oxygen sats as i have to attend a short roll call..

when i came back, i saw them pushing the Emergency trolley .. and there's quite a bit of commotion going on.. went in and saw the pt, vomiting fresh bld.. eyes were rolling up.. and look as pale as sheet.. for a moment, i thought he's sure a goner...

however, praise the lord, he survived through my shift.. maybe waiting for me .. tonight, my last night..

strange as it can be.. life is jus like a thin thread, a moment ago, u r fine, then next moment, God decides ur time is up.. i'm going bring u away.. scary but true..



i have so many things to accomplish, that i dunno whether a lifetime will be enough for me.. i really wish i could travel round the world to see so many things.. i've come to a decision, hubby tan always asked me to try internet marketing which can really help me to earn some cash..
i really dunno how true it is, but sure there's live testimonials that i can see.. that is happening to his friends..

but i have least a bit of interest in it..

for the sake of doing the things i like, guess i'll have to .. u know, sacrifice.


i wanna travel to countries .. to see their cultures, to experience new things.. since i can't be a flight attendant, guess i've to find some other way..

i wanna learn how to drive, buy my own car, not necessary need to be a big car, jus a normal one will do.. so that i don't need to waste my money on Cab..

i wanna have my own room, own pink room, decorate myself, have my own shirts, dresses, cupboards, lingeries, not to share with my sis.. i really wanna have one, before i get married.. if not, i wouldn't have a chance to decorate my own little cosy shack.

i finish my degree.. specialise in probably, midwifery and paeds

i wanna bring my family. my granny esp. to travel, while she can.. i really love her alot as she's the only one who supports me when everything seems not to go my way...



so many things, so little time, so many aspirations, so little money..

is a lifetime enough for me?

new braces. new stuffs.. =)

haiz, i didn't get my lower brace done, cos Dr said that my upper teeth still didn't shift enough .. so i have to wait another 6 more weeks.. boohoo.. that's like in AUG. but i changed the rubber band colours~!

after that went out with Rum to search for ranji's present.. BTW .. HAPppy biRthday to Ranjini~! =D went to eat at NYDC, can't really eat anything.. ordered Lagsane.. *freaking painful now*, cos amazingly after one day the teeth really shifted..


instead of choosing her present.. i kept choosing my own stuff, though i'm really broke to the max.. i still bought 2 frilly bras from COTTON ON. super comfy each for 5 bucks, also, a CHOMEL small crystal clip for 2 bucks and 2 shirts from FOX for 9 bucks each.. totally spent = 25 bucks. woohooo.. huge savings.. totally love it.. =D







after taat i met hubby tan to watch movie, "ghost of girlfriend's past" quite a nice show.. really for guys to watch..


had a long chat with hubby tan on the way home, talking bout marriage and stuffs...alot of obstacles.. but i believe we'll make it thru and get married some day.. =)


i just love him, the way he is and how he's loving me.. that's why i choose to stay..

due to boredom.. i

i'm super bored~!

i actually found out that this choc, is super nice and it's damn cheap oki.. only 80cents. =PpP.. should try it.. it's recommended by edwin..=)

came back from work this afternoon, actually quite tired wanted to take a nap but felt like if i were to take a nap now, i wouldn't be able to slp later at night.. so i... BAKED COOKIES~!

again.. okie, actually it's because of Dr victoria's big chewy cookies, she baked and brought to work and gave me one.. it's so yummy.. =) so i decided to try it..

in the end. it failed , terribly.. i dunno why.. i followed the receipe.. carefully.. i did.. it turned out like this..

like mouldy "kueh"

but it's sweet and tasty eh, i threw the rest of the mixture away and started to try another receipe.. " cutout cookies"

i actually modified the receipe a bit , added some candies, almond and choc chips.. and it turned out.... TAdda~!


nice ?
not only tasted sweet and cripsy, looked nice too~!



should i give the cookies to Hubby tan?

~ updates

12/06/09

me and my sis.. waiting for the watson contest.

she got in ..I didn't get in .. =( i think mainly because of my braces..whatever la.. anyway, i met a new fren there.. her name is Marilene.. =) super funny and straightforward girl.. same like me .. bRacES~! but she's taking out soon..

13/06/09

anyway , moving on.. i had family gathering.. super tired but fun ..~! ate super alot.. i think i'm gonna put on dunno how many pounds.. we went to er yi house to BBQ.. with hubby tan.. woah~
i actually ate really alot.. after that my uncle went to buy durians.. then eat again. hhahaha..

my ah ma says.. eat durian must also eat mangosteen to reduce the heatiness..

A small part of my family

"Wolverine" helping my with the bbq ..

sis,ed, ken, playing the cashless monopoly..

"Huat ah~!"

i was quite surprised that there's this new thing call the cashless monopoly.. u know, we use to play monopoly, someone has to be the banker, and count the money.. pay the mortgage and everything, so irritating, now it's all sort out ! Each player will be given a credit card where there's a certain amt of value inside, if they wanna buy a house, they'll have to swipe the card into this electronic machine and deduct the money.~! super cool eh. haha
i love the bbq outting! need to organise somemore.. hee hee

14/06/09

was off on this day.. didn't had enough slp cos mum keep askin me to eat dim sum with them together in the morning, so woke up at 9 am.. T-T.. super tired.. thot of meetin hubby tan after that, but mum ask me to acc them to Jp, cos ah ma is around .. then i have to acc her ... anyway, things are super cheap eh. cos of the GSS, but. haiz, i got no money to spend la.. =(

after that still went to meet hubby tan cos at around 830 we're attending Jaz sis wedding..didn't take any pics. haah. cos didn't feel like it.. we were sitting at the VIP table where we can't see anything on stage. haha. how ironic, i thot we suppose to be able to see clearly.. but niwayz. the whole table consist of many unknown ppl to me ..

things that they talk about .. i also dunno.. haha.. ignore.. i only talked to pekkie.. wanna go thailand together .~!! beaching and shopping.. but dunno whether the July AL slot i'll be able to go overseas AND whether i have enough money for myself..






i'm actually pondering over some things.. i was yearning to get married .. maybe at age of 24 25, but after hearing certain things.. i'm so afraid now.. and can guys be trusted? What is marriage to some ppl? it's so scary.....

teapot

hubby tan jus said that "i'm a little teapot short and stout." cos i took the bad genes of my parents while my sis took the good genes..:

my dad- tall and fat


my mum- short and slim


me -short and fat!!!



my sis slim and tall!!!


unfair~! super duper unfair...

=(

forget it, no use thinking bout it .. truth is it'll never change.. haha

had a heart to heart talk with my besti today.. been so long since we talk.. bout some things la.. time really flies, i still rmb the first time we know each other was during sec 2 .. that's like donkey years ago when we're still struggling with our O and N levels.. getting all stressed up with our discipline mistress.. haha.. super funny .. miss the old days actually..

as we grow older, we grew apart, cos of the different hobbies that we like.. she's a person who really loves having fun , while i'm a boring person who's always busy with work.. haha.. that's why we seldom meet up.. but i'm glad she still treat me as a best friend.. =) and we still enjoy hanging out togather..


noi. u're my best friend!

*worries*

I just finished work and came back home, been quite busy the past few days.. never slept well too.. the dark circles are seriously popping out.. see.

ignore the blouse pls, it's some aunty looking pj. =P ... see. i've been bothered by so many things that i didn't rest well .. keep working that's why i end up having big eyebags and triple eye lids in one side of my eye.. =x

list of things that bothers me recently:
1. hubby tan since that day , the things that he said.. keep thinking bout it..
2. watson contest
3. clinique contest
4. curtin school fees (in need of large sum of money within short period of time)
5. sudden loss of bonus
6. school time table and requests..
7. my weight..
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so on ..

some things are quite unnecessary but.. still it's bothering me..
sometimes when it's time to slp , i jus can't slp, i'm super tired .. but can't fall asleep , and i can't eat piriton if the next day i'm working morning.. i'll be knocked out.


actually i'm suppose to meet up with SSN they all for farewell dinner for wan and fiq. leaving for NS.. but i really can't , been going out alot last week after work, my parents KB already.. so i jus stay at home lor.. so many of them leaving.. Abu also leaving for NS. haz quiting, rodo transfering out.. so sian..i'm also planning to leave but still deciding.. leave for KKH.

bothered by my fees for curtin because.. I HAVE NO BONUS THIS YR.
super irritating.. we worked like shit, sweat like hell with the PPE and N95. risk of getting infected with H1N1. yet we don't get extra. seriously overworked under paid. i'm so worried bout the fees cos curtin says we have to submit the money by 16 june, which is like in a weeks time. where the hell can i get the money.? i tried asking my mum to lend me, i'll slowly pay her back, she not only do not want to help, she also said, " no money don't study la". what's wrong with her? super irritating. i have no choice but to borrow from my granny. i really don't want to ... she's so old already... ...

sometimes i dun understand why my granny is so different from my mum, i told my granny bout my situation, she totally understands .. i told her i will definately pay her back , monthly basis. she says," take ur time, no need to pay also can.. most imptly u must study hard, if u study hard don't pay me back also can... " i was so touched by her. . but i felt guilty borrowing money from her.... thanx granny!

next.. hubby tan recently told me that he will consider to work at his uncle company which might require him to travel very often.. but the pay is good.. i'm not sure how good it is la.. but i have no say for this.. if it really happens then probaby this is the way we'll communicate. haha...



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i'm gonna stop here, damn tired already.. yawnzZ.. time to slp.. nite..!