i hate mondays!

can i don't go work pls....

i jus wanna slp... yawnzzzZ

.
.
.
.
.

i happen to go to hubby tan's aunt hse over the weekend.. to actually help him to shift a set of sofa back to his place.. his aunt place, is Awesome. I've seen so many nice houses.. but this. is really nice..
a place that i feel so cozy once i step into it..
a place that feels like a res0rt so laid back
feels like u dun wanna leave house once u r in it..

if i ever have the chance to have this house.. i rather give up my job, stay at home and be a full time mom and housewife.. keep the house nice and cozy..

wait for my hubby to come back home and cook nice dishes...

.... i hope this perfect dream comes true..

..So many things happening .. that sets me thinking..

..so many dreams .. keep repeating.. same thing.. over and over again...

..i dunno why..

..perhaps .. i'm really exhausted...

..need a long break.. from work..

sometimes .. i think to myself, if i'm not a nurse anymore, what else can i do.. for a living?

..... Nothing.

went out with Loveliest that day, to celebrate Ranji bday..one sentence she said, sets me thinking from that day till now..

"patient's life is not up to us to decide , even though they're DIL max.. "

maybe it's due to the environment i'm working at ... seeing death is like nothing to me anymore.. maybe it's due to "go with the flow ... " everyone else is doing it.. so i shall just follow..

i realised it's not fair to the patient..

however, there's nothing i can do bout it , i can either continue to do it , or leave the working environment...

i love nursing.. i feel good helping other ppl... but ... so many other reasons made me hate it..

working with ur best friend can be the worst thing... seeing them do the things that is so not right, and dunno how to bring it across to them nicely so as not to offend them..

working with them, dampens my mood, makes me guilt -stricten...

God, pls give me the strength to do the right things for my patients..

THanks Ranji for enlightening me!

just a random post..

Looking at this badge makes me feel that time really pass by very fast.. really.. in just a blink of eye .. i've been a staff nurse for 3 yrs.. just 2 more yrs i'm gonna be a Senior staff nurse.

really cannot believe it.. i've been thinking of leaving this job for at least 2 yrs plus.. yet im still stuck ..it seems i can't leave nursing at all.. probably God really pave the road for me to become a nurse to help others..

but think of all the nonsense patients and the many abx. i feel so dread to go work.. hate it..

gonna head back to work tonight..

.. when can i stop working like that...?