young mommies..

BABIES and MOMMIES are my topics today.

picture of K and B..

These few nites, instead of working on my portfolio assignment, i've been slacking, and randomly surfing the net , really super random...

came across several blogs link from somewhere. blogs of super young mom. not anywhere else but in Singapore. i'm speechless. and @-@! ( supposed to be a very shocked expression ) ..

there's really alot. and it's not like they shot gun and got married and give birth to the kid, they actually made their own decision and get married, to their guy with BOTH THEIR PARENT'S APPROVAL.!! wow. that's something new, mums and dads are really living in a total new age now. except for my folks.

i can't believe that they agreed so easily to marry off their daughters who are 17 or probably 16 for some, to guys who are barely 21 yet. and with no job, still studying..

i seriously do not know how they survive with not 1 kid but mostly 2 kids...

I'm not looking down on them, in fact, i admire them... at least they are not so irresponsible as to abort the innocent life and continue to live their life as normal ...

i enjoy looking at their blogs and reading their entries on how they found out that they were pregnant, how they cope with pregnancy and the birth process...

it's really lovely when u read it..

i wish, i could get married young and start a family on my own, that was my dream when i was young, i even told my granny that, and recently she started asking me "i thought u said u wanna give birth and get married at 21" ....

haha, laughing to myself in my heart, it's easier said than done. Now reaching the age that we can legally get married, there are so many things to crack our head with that we have no more time to think about our dreams when we were young....

my wish is still the same as before... to be a young mummy

and hopefully "u" are the one who can help me fufil my dream soon..

suuuuper random..

when i was younger.. i use to keep diaries, alot of them.. writing it daily or frequently.. i have so many things to write about.. why now. i have to crrack my head open for a simple entry..

there is so much going on in my life.. planning for future, completing my degree, buying a house, starting a business and so on..

i dunno where to start , or perhaps i'm stuck.. it's just so difficult, that sometimes i feel like giving up totally and just ignore.

life become boring and monotonous when this happens... i become depressed and negative..

hubby tan hates it when i'm so negative, i hate it too.. i try to prevent myself from feeling that way, but sometimes i just can't. maybe it's the medication . i dunno?

parents have been making scarstic remarks to me, and i complained to hubby tan while he'll say, why do u let this kind of thing affect u .. ? the fact is it does, i tried ignore, but couldn't..

i always questioned my life, why like this why like that, hubby tan is so right, why do i only know how to complain and not find a solution....

when i'm young, i wanna grow older faster, now that i'm older, i wish that i was still young..

when have i become like this?

actually..what am i good for ?

boo~ a scary picture to scare u