taking care of baby for one day..

last sat was a damn busy day for my family.. cos of some chinese God festival .. that my uncle was actively engaged in .. i'm actually totally not interested at all.. was being pulled by my mum to go help out..

it was damn hot. suffocating in the tent itself.. and hubby tan was not there with me .. i was super duper bored to the max ... =( so i decided to volunteer to take care of branson at home..

was quite fun at the start.. cos i love babies.. and sis and edwin was there to help too..

making milk and feeding him, changing diapers and all.. was nothing.. but fun to me.. haha.. cos first time ma....

then...

comes the part where we have to coax him to slp and he just refuses to slp ... playing and talking , climbing up the bed, climbing all over u .. hhaaha...

lucky edwin was still ard, so he managed to put him into the "sarong" and rock him to slp...

so sis and edwin gotta go run some errands, will be back 2 hours later, leaving me and branson and another kid , kenneth, alone at home...

in my heart, i start to panick, what if he starts to shout loudly and cry non-stop, what am i supposed to do.. @-@

kk, but lucky for me, he woke up quietly, drank his milk quietly and watch tv with me....

i had a break in - btw. went downstairs to help out in the festival thingy again...

super tired... it was 10 30 pm already, at this point, branson's mum, wanted to bring branson home to let him drink milk and coax him to slp... so me and lionel tag along..

being over ambitious, we volunteered to look after him while his mum have to go help out ...

horror starts... THat boy jus refuses to slp ... he was so tired already... and we were too!

he just keeps playing and yelling and climbing all over... me and hubby tan was super sleepy already..

it was 12 am.. and he's still not asleep.. i couldn't take it.. i jus force him into the 'sarong' .. and be a bit firm to him.. and rock him to slp.....

finally, when he was about to fall asleep. everyone's home..

In my heart i was thinking.. phew.~ nightmare's over.. i can go and and sleep !

i went home, dead tired , showered and went to sleeping mode.

when i woke up the next day. my hand ache like crazy after carryin branson the whole day..

and for the next 2 days .. had to put plaster on my arm..

now. i realise how crazy it was to take care of a baby.. it's often easy to say than to do.. i understand how K's mum is feeling.. all crazy and emotionally tortured... esp, when K is much bigger size than branson.. younger, much noisy... and more difficult to coax to slp...

i jus hope everything will be fine for her soon and pray to God that she can find some help soon....

But however,

i still love taking care of babies, wouldn't mind to take care of Branson again.. =)

to grow old together...

now.. this is a really late post on Mrs Lee k.y death..

Never heard much about her.. before, probably cos i was damn ignorant bout political and country stuffs in the past.. but there's so many info about her recently due to her death..

it's really nice to see couple grow old together... i mean, i'm working in the hospital.. with alot of old patients.. whenever i see old husbands visiting their wives.. my heart melts and it lit a smile on my face thinking that there are still such loving couples given the cruel crazy world nowadays..

it's such a bliss, to have ur husband/wife, by ur bedside... comforting u spend the last moment of your life.. at ur deathbed, no more fear jus with him/her holding ur hand..

For Mm Lee, he didn't had the chance, to be by her bedside... due to his health, he was admitted... but to think that they've spent their whole life time together, thru thick and thin, whether in health or sickness... it's so heart warming...

who wouldn't wish to have this kind of relationship....

and lastly... my heartfelt condolence to Mm lee. ..

A model couple for us all to follow..

this is such a sad scene..
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Been feeling super tired recently.. even dozing off during nite shift which i dun usually do.. is my health going downhill? i really wonder... ate super unhealthy things.. like macs, chocolates.. and yup.. oily chinese pancakes.. and errr... potato chips...! at night.. i really can't resist.. i dunno why.. even though i have ulcers..

cooked with super alot of oil. for breakfast.

ate all 3 one short during nite shift when rummy bout this for me!

been busy almost every week.. but at least i get to spend some time with hubby tan..

i wish... there is more time
i wish ... there isn't so many troubles ...
i wish .. there isn't so many incurable sickness....

for the next few weekends till Dec, Hubby tan won't be free.. and me, i'm only free on weekends.. =( what's more sad is that, i'm on leave for the next week and i can't even spend time with him...


it's really no choice, can't really complain much cos he's doing it to earn more money so that we really can get married soon.. else he'll start to scold me..


sometimes.. it jus seems so impossible, but with God, everything is possible.. =)

torturous

past 1 week was mentally torturous for me. seriously.. for some private matters that ain't suppose to be shared with public..

so badly affected that i've lost some weight, felt super tired.. slept but dream of unecessary things..

i think of death and depressing things.. i just can't stop my mind from all these.. i dunno why. i really hate it cause it's so tiring thinking of things that is not yet happening..
It was suppose to be a happy weekend.. it's still happy .. for liwen and mei.. cos it's their birthday... i'm jus pretending to be happy temporary trying to forget the problems that i'm facing right now..

i really hope that everything will be just fine.. for both me and hubby tan...
i hope it's really not true, of what i'm thinking ...
i hope God can answer my prayer..

mei's bday bash was a blast.. .. she really enjoyed.. it looks more like a baby shower than 21st bday party.. with all the relative babies and all... it was at least more than 10 babies present...
so nice and happy..

i wish i can have my own.. =)

happy birthday to shuyee!

my dream of a perfect family. except that child is not mine.. haha

here's Keira and Branson.. i just love this picture so much...


happy family!