to grow old together...

now.. this is a really late post on Mrs Lee k.y death..

Never heard much about her.. before, probably cos i was damn ignorant bout political and country stuffs in the past.. but there's so many info about her recently due to her death..

it's really nice to see couple grow old together... i mean, i'm working in the hospital.. with alot of old patients.. whenever i see old husbands visiting their wives.. my heart melts and it lit a smile on my face thinking that there are still such loving couples given the cruel crazy world nowadays..

it's such a bliss, to have ur husband/wife, by ur bedside... comforting u spend the last moment of your life.. at ur deathbed, no more fear jus with him/her holding ur hand..

For Mm Lee, he didn't had the chance, to be by her bedside... due to his health, he was admitted... but to think that they've spent their whole life time together, thru thick and thin, whether in health or sickness... it's so heart warming...

who wouldn't wish to have this kind of relationship....

and lastly... my heartfelt condolence to Mm lee. ..

A model couple for us all to follow..

this is such a sad scene..
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Been feeling super tired recently.. even dozing off during nite shift which i dun usually do.. is my health going downhill? i really wonder... ate super unhealthy things.. like macs, chocolates.. and yup.. oily chinese pancakes.. and errr... potato chips...! at night.. i really can't resist.. i dunno why.. even though i have ulcers..

cooked with super alot of oil. for breakfast.

ate all 3 one short during nite shift when rummy bout this for me!

been busy almost every week.. but at least i get to spend some time with hubby tan..

i wish... there is more time
i wish ... there isn't so many troubles ...
i wish .. there isn't so many incurable sickness....

for the next few weekends till Dec, Hubby tan won't be free.. and me, i'm only free on weekends.. =( what's more sad is that, i'm on leave for the next week and i can't even spend time with him...


it's really no choice, can't really complain much cos he's doing it to earn more money so that we really can get married soon.. else he'll start to scold me..


sometimes.. it jus seems so impossible, but with God, everything is possible.. =)

torturous

past 1 week was mentally torturous for me. seriously.. for some private matters that ain't suppose to be shared with public..

so badly affected that i've lost some weight, felt super tired.. slept but dream of unecessary things..

i think of death and depressing things.. i just can't stop my mind from all these.. i dunno why. i really hate it cause it's so tiring thinking of things that is not yet happening..
It was suppose to be a happy weekend.. it's still happy .. for liwen and mei.. cos it's their birthday... i'm jus pretending to be happy temporary trying to forget the problems that i'm facing right now..

i really hope that everything will be just fine.. for both me and hubby tan...
i hope it's really not true, of what i'm thinking ...
i hope God can answer my prayer..

mei's bday bash was a blast.. .. she really enjoyed.. it looks more like a baby shower than 21st bday party.. with all the relative babies and all... it was at least more than 10 babies present...
so nice and happy..

i wish i can have my own.. =)

happy birthday to shuyee!

my dream of a perfect family. except that child is not mine.. haha

here's Keira and Branson.. i just love this picture so much...


happy family!

young mommies..

BABIES and MOMMIES are my topics today.

picture of K and B..

These few nites, instead of working on my portfolio assignment, i've been slacking, and randomly surfing the net , really super random...

came across several blogs link from somewhere. blogs of super young mom. not anywhere else but in Singapore. i'm speechless. and @-@! ( supposed to be a very shocked expression ) ..

there's really alot. and it's not like they shot gun and got married and give birth to the kid, they actually made their own decision and get married, to their guy with BOTH THEIR PARENT'S APPROVAL.!! wow. that's something new, mums and dads are really living in a total new age now. except for my folks.

i can't believe that they agreed so easily to marry off their daughters who are 17 or probably 16 for some, to guys who are barely 21 yet. and with no job, still studying..

i seriously do not know how they survive with not 1 kid but mostly 2 kids...

I'm not looking down on them, in fact, i admire them... at least they are not so irresponsible as to abort the innocent life and continue to live their life as normal ...

i enjoy looking at their blogs and reading their entries on how they found out that they were pregnant, how they cope with pregnancy and the birth process...

it's really lovely when u read it..

i wish, i could get married young and start a family on my own, that was my dream when i was young, i even told my granny that, and recently she started asking me "i thought u said u wanna give birth and get married at 21" ....

haha, laughing to myself in my heart, it's easier said than done. Now reaching the age that we can legally get married, there are so many things to crack our head with that we have no more time to think about our dreams when we were young....

my wish is still the same as before... to be a young mummy

and hopefully "u" are the one who can help me fufil my dream soon..

suuuuper random..

when i was younger.. i use to keep diaries, alot of them.. writing it daily or frequently.. i have so many things to write about.. why now. i have to crrack my head open for a simple entry..

there is so much going on in my life.. planning for future, completing my degree, buying a house, starting a business and so on..

i dunno where to start , or perhaps i'm stuck.. it's just so difficult, that sometimes i feel like giving up totally and just ignore.

life become boring and monotonous when this happens... i become depressed and negative..

hubby tan hates it when i'm so negative, i hate it too.. i try to prevent myself from feeling that way, but sometimes i just can't. maybe it's the medication . i dunno?

parents have been making scarstic remarks to me, and i complained to hubby tan while he'll say, why do u let this kind of thing affect u .. ? the fact is it does, i tried ignore, but couldn't..

i always questioned my life, why like this why like that, hubby tan is so right, why do i only know how to complain and not find a solution....

when i'm young, i wanna grow older faster, now that i'm older, i wish that i was still young..

when have i become like this?

actually..what am i good for ?

boo~ a scary picture to scare u

Late entry on birthday bash~

on 20/08/2010... THat's when i turn 23! .. I was working nite as usual ... and below is a picture of my first birthday cake .. prepared by Elaine, Cora, Sri and Soumya..... Thanks so much.. it's full of love!

Too bad only 1 pathetic picture from sri's phone. ahha

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the long await

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birthday bash @ Grand Corpthorne Waterfront!!!

They hide and scare me with this cake!

one of the main culprit! Thanks so much for everything that u done .. *I love u*
Thanks hubby tan the most and loveliest and melsome~ for the birthday suprise that u guys planned for me .. i was truely touched and shocked.!

wii was awesome.. !

cake was yummy

pizza was yummy too!

PResents were awesome!

That's my lovely cake!

the loveliest!

That umbrella symbolises something.. i'm so touched by it. p/s : i've been carrying it in my bag eversince i got it. hee

eagerly opening up the present

thats the umbrella i'm talking bout~

The new wallet !

look at me and my happiest face! CHANEL perfume!

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Time has passed so fast..... i can't believe i'm 23 already..

From this girl on the right. to ... this...

Happy birthday to mE!

i disappeared , for quite some time, due to laziness....

i've got so many things to say jus dunno where to start. haha. first of all, i totally didn't do any post on the taiwan trip cos there are massive loads of photos to upload and my com is so so lag.

i enjoyed so much in taiwan, miss the food, the clothes , hot spring, the doggies and everything there... i would love to go back there again..!

just a few snaps of taiwan before i blast u guys with the taiwan photos~~

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Time zooms by so fast that i didn't realise that Branson and Keira have been growing alot.. they are so adorable!

Branson

stole the pic from her mum's acc. haha

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Within a short period of time , so many things happen.. so fast.. my dear parents finally went to HDB and confirmed the new house which is located at Boon lay, the one me and lio have been eyeing on... HMmm.. they got it, jus their luck.!

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me and sis, super excited .. started to search for home decor books, however, we almost forgot that the house will only be ready in 2014. duh~

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and my mum. she got me addicted to this korean drama...

i can't stop watching it.....~!!!!

anyways, next up will be my bday blast post at Grand corpthorne waterfront. ! so stay tuned~! ^-^'''

how do u define, the man of your life.. how do u know, he's the one for u?

sometimes, life is full of surprises...

i know, i have already found mine..

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Anyways, talk bout something that happened last night, that pissed me off.. i really hate it when patients or patient's family say, " it's oki, don't tie my father, jus let him walk, if he fall , it's OUR PROBLEM. or Don't care bout me, it's my own life, i fall and break my head also MY PROBLEM..
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sorry hor, u fall, or ur whoever fall, is NOT YOUR PROBLEM, it's the staff nurses and the hospital's fault, some even turn their back and say , u nurses never take care of my parents wad, that's why fall...
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end up, we have a black record in our report card.
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i really hate it when patients turn violent, not confused patients, jus normal ppl like us, jus because that got stupid fucking temper, doesn't mean he can push us around like this,
jus because u're old, doesn't mean u are always right,
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"lucky for me, i avoided jus in time, if not, my head will bleed from the flying cup that u had in ur hands u filthy old man."