jigsaw life

greetings everyone.

CAUTION!!!

this is a ranting post. with massive loads of complain

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It feels so sucky when u are trying to accomplish something and some how .. someone jus come along and says discouraging words for u to ponder whether u should go ahead with ur decision.. same for air stewarding, same for mission .

i know it's easy for u to say , "jus ignore me la.. go ahead with what u think it's right for u ..." or " don't let my words affect u la.. don't let anything affect u .. if u wan it so bad..."

I hate myself sometimes for thinking so much about other ppl's feeling and neglecting my own.. why can't i jus go ahead, and ignore the rest....

i know when i look back someday , i'll be so regretful of the plentiful things that i couldn't achieve now.. due to family.. due to u .. due to bla bla bla.....

sianness to the max..

my life is like a jigsaw puzzle. maybe million piece, something that can't be fixed or .. dunno how to fix it back properly.. it's so messy, so uncertain.. nothin to confirm.. when am i settling down . no idea.. when am i buying house.. no idea.. am i studying adv dip.. freaking no idea.. am i going to continue in SGH... no idea.. going to KK? joining SQ?

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wturf.