suuuuper random..

when i was younger.. i use to keep diaries, alot of them.. writing it daily or frequently.. i have so many things to write about.. why now. i have to crrack my head open for a simple entry..

there is so much going on in my life.. planning for future, completing my degree, buying a house, starting a business and so on..

i dunno where to start , or perhaps i'm stuck.. it's just so difficult, that sometimes i feel like giving up totally and just ignore.

life become boring and monotonous when this happens... i become depressed and negative..

hubby tan hates it when i'm so negative, i hate it too.. i try to prevent myself from feeling that way, but sometimes i just can't. maybe it's the medication . i dunno?

parents have been making scarstic remarks to me, and i complained to hubby tan while he'll say, why do u let this kind of thing affect u .. ? the fact is it does, i tried ignore, but couldn't..

i always questioned my life, why like this why like that, hubby tan is so right, why do i only know how to complain and not find a solution....

when i'm young, i wanna grow older faster, now that i'm older, i wish that i was still young..

when have i become like this?

actually..what am i good for ?

boo~ a scary picture to scare u

Late entry on birthday bash~

on 20/08/2010... THat's when i turn 23! .. I was working nite as usual ... and below is a picture of my first birthday cake .. prepared by Elaine, Cora, Sri and Soumya..... Thanks so much.. it's full of love!

Too bad only 1 pathetic picture from sri's phone. ahha

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the long await

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birthday bash @ Grand Corpthorne Waterfront!!!

They hide and scare me with this cake!

one of the main culprit! Thanks so much for everything that u done .. *I love u*
Thanks hubby tan the most and loveliest and melsome~ for the birthday suprise that u guys planned for me .. i was truely touched and shocked.!

wii was awesome.. !

cake was yummy

pizza was yummy too!

PResents were awesome!

That's my lovely cake!

the loveliest!

That umbrella symbolises something.. i'm so touched by it. p/s : i've been carrying it in my bag eversince i got it. hee

eagerly opening up the present

thats the umbrella i'm talking bout~

The new wallet !

look at me and my happiest face! CHANEL perfume!

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Time has passed so fast..... i can't believe i'm 23 already..

From this girl on the right. to ... this...

Happy birthday to mE!

i disappeared , for quite some time, due to laziness....

i've got so many things to say jus dunno where to start. haha. first of all, i totally didn't do any post on the taiwan trip cos there are massive loads of photos to upload and my com is so so lag.

i enjoyed so much in taiwan, miss the food, the clothes , hot spring, the doggies and everything there... i would love to go back there again..!

just a few snaps of taiwan before i blast u guys with the taiwan photos~~

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Time zooms by so fast that i didn't realise that Branson and Keira have been growing alot.. they are so adorable!

Branson

stole the pic from her mum's acc. haha

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Within a short period of time , so many things happen.. so fast.. my dear parents finally went to HDB and confirmed the new house which is located at Boon lay, the one me and lio have been eyeing on... HMmm.. they got it, jus their luck.!

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me and sis, super excited .. started to search for home decor books, however, we almost forgot that the house will only be ready in 2014. duh~

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and my mum. she got me addicted to this korean drama...

i can't stop watching it.....~!!!!

anyways, next up will be my bday blast post at Grand corpthorne waterfront. ! so stay tuned~! ^-^'''

how do u define, the man of your life.. how do u know, he's the one for u?

sometimes, life is full of surprises...

i know, i have already found mine..

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Anyways, talk bout something that happened last night, that pissed me off.. i really hate it when patients or patient's family say, " it's oki, don't tie my father, jus let him walk, if he fall , it's OUR PROBLEM. or Don't care bout me, it's my own life, i fall and break my head also MY PROBLEM..
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sorry hor, u fall, or ur whoever fall, is NOT YOUR PROBLEM, it's the staff nurses and the hospital's fault, some even turn their back and say , u nurses never take care of my parents wad, that's why fall...
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end up, we have a black record in our report card.
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i really hate it when patients turn violent, not confused patients, jus normal ppl like us, jus because that got stupid fucking temper, doesn't mean he can push us around like this,
jus because u're old, doesn't mean u are always right,
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"lucky for me, i avoided jus in time, if not, my head will bleed from the flying cup that u had in ur hands u filthy old man."

i hate mondays!

can i don't go work pls....

i jus wanna slp... yawnzzzZ

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i happen to go to hubby tan's aunt hse over the weekend.. to actually help him to shift a set of sofa back to his place.. his aunt place, is Awesome. I've seen so many nice houses.. but this. is really nice..
a place that i feel so cozy once i step into it..
a place that feels like a res0rt so laid back
feels like u dun wanna leave house once u r in it..

if i ever have the chance to have this house.. i rather give up my job, stay at home and be a full time mom and housewife.. keep the house nice and cozy..

wait for my hubby to come back home and cook nice dishes...

.... i hope this perfect dream comes true..

..So many things happening .. that sets me thinking..

..so many dreams .. keep repeating.. same thing.. over and over again...

..i dunno why..

..perhaps .. i'm really exhausted...

..need a long break.. from work..

sometimes .. i think to myself, if i'm not a nurse anymore, what else can i do.. for a living?

..... Nothing.

went out with Loveliest that day, to celebrate Ranji bday..one sentence she said, sets me thinking from that day till now..

"patient's life is not up to us to decide , even though they're DIL max.. "

maybe it's due to the environment i'm working at ... seeing death is like nothing to me anymore.. maybe it's due to "go with the flow ... " everyone else is doing it.. so i shall just follow..

i realised it's not fair to the patient..

however, there's nothing i can do bout it , i can either continue to do it , or leave the working environment...

i love nursing.. i feel good helping other ppl... but ... so many other reasons made me hate it..

working with ur best friend can be the worst thing... seeing them do the things that is so not right, and dunno how to bring it across to them nicely so as not to offend them..

working with them, dampens my mood, makes me guilt -stricten...

God, pls give me the strength to do the right things for my patients..

THanks Ranji for enlightening me!

just a random post..

Looking at this badge makes me feel that time really pass by very fast.. really.. in just a blink of eye .. i've been a staff nurse for 3 yrs.. just 2 more yrs i'm gonna be a Senior staff nurse.

really cannot believe it.. i've been thinking of leaving this job for at least 2 yrs plus.. yet im still stuck ..it seems i can't leave nursing at all.. probably God really pave the road for me to become a nurse to help others..

but think of all the nonsense patients and the many abx. i feel so dread to go work.. hate it..

gonna head back to work tonight..

.. when can i stop working like that...?