how do u define, the man of your life.. how do u know, he's the one for u?

sometimes, life is full of surprises...

i know, i have already found mine..

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Anyways, talk bout something that happened last night, that pissed me off.. i really hate it when patients or patient's family say, " it's oki, don't tie my father, jus let him walk, if he fall , it's OUR PROBLEM. or Don't care bout me, it's my own life, i fall and break my head also MY PROBLEM..
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sorry hor, u fall, or ur whoever fall, is NOT YOUR PROBLEM, it's the staff nurses and the hospital's fault, some even turn their back and say , u nurses never take care of my parents wad, that's why fall...
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end up, we have a black record in our report card.
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i really hate it when patients turn violent, not confused patients, jus normal ppl like us, jus because that got stupid fucking temper, doesn't mean he can push us around like this,
jus because u're old, doesn't mean u are always right,
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"lucky for me, i avoided jus in time, if not, my head will bleed from the flying cup that u had in ur hands u filthy old man."

i hate mondays!

can i don't go work pls....

i jus wanna slp... yawnzzzZ

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i happen to go to hubby tan's aunt hse over the weekend.. to actually help him to shift a set of sofa back to his place.. his aunt place, is Awesome. I've seen so many nice houses.. but this. is really nice..
a place that i feel so cozy once i step into it..
a place that feels like a res0rt so laid back
feels like u dun wanna leave house once u r in it..

if i ever have the chance to have this house.. i rather give up my job, stay at home and be a full time mom and housewife.. keep the house nice and cozy..

wait for my hubby to come back home and cook nice dishes...

.... i hope this perfect dream comes true..

..So many things happening .. that sets me thinking..

..so many dreams .. keep repeating.. same thing.. over and over again...

..i dunno why..

..perhaps .. i'm really exhausted...

..need a long break.. from work..

sometimes .. i think to myself, if i'm not a nurse anymore, what else can i do.. for a living?

..... Nothing.

went out with Loveliest that day, to celebrate Ranji bday..one sentence she said, sets me thinking from that day till now..

"patient's life is not up to us to decide , even though they're DIL max.. "

maybe it's due to the environment i'm working at ... seeing death is like nothing to me anymore.. maybe it's due to "go with the flow ... " everyone else is doing it.. so i shall just follow..

i realised it's not fair to the patient..

however, there's nothing i can do bout it , i can either continue to do it , or leave the working environment...

i love nursing.. i feel good helping other ppl... but ... so many other reasons made me hate it..

working with ur best friend can be the worst thing... seeing them do the things that is so not right, and dunno how to bring it across to them nicely so as not to offend them..

working with them, dampens my mood, makes me guilt -stricten...

God, pls give me the strength to do the right things for my patients..

THanks Ranji for enlightening me!

just a random post..

Looking at this badge makes me feel that time really pass by very fast.. really.. in just a blink of eye .. i've been a staff nurse for 3 yrs.. just 2 more yrs i'm gonna be a Senior staff nurse.

really cannot believe it.. i've been thinking of leaving this job for at least 2 yrs plus.. yet im still stuck ..it seems i can't leave nursing at all.. probably God really pave the road for me to become a nurse to help others..

but think of all the nonsense patients and the many abx. i feel so dread to go work.. hate it..

gonna head back to work tonight..

.. when can i stop working like that...?

Have i mentioned that i love weekends the most ever since i've been on perm nite.. lolz..

i spent 2 quality days with love. =) watching time traveller's wife, lazing around.. talking love.. going church and eating japanese food. again.. =)

lazing around with mountains of pillows and the tioman turtle..

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so the story begins..

that'a a classic pose of him..

开动咯！

that's my tempura ramen!

uni sushi (sea urchin) -he insisted.

salmon sashimi. is a must

mango + slamon + roe sushi

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and many other more.. too hungry to take pics.. haha

he says. i'm his dummydoll..

i say, he's my clown! wahahaha..

i really really enjoyed myself.. meanwhile.. i've completed my assignment! finally.. and submitted today.. i just hope that i get reasonable marks.. O. ya.. forgot to share the good news.. i actually scored high marks for my previous 2 assignments! Praise the lord..

May the lord be with me always. and him too..

woah~.. last week after the camping with roomates, i rmb putting in my facebook status "what a fun filled weekend! can we have more of that pls... =)" my wish really did came true! i spent the weekend playing paintballs and go kart in JB! so fun .. but pain.

It started on fri, when i go shopping at beach road with hubby tan, for "overalls" for my size.. search and search.. only to find, the only one dark blue which fit into the criteria.. so we bought, i was reluctant at first, whinning to him , afraid of being the only girl who will wear that.. haha.. he was totally annoyed by me..

sat we set off at 8am. cos hubby was late. the whole troop of 20 plus ppl were waiting for him & me. super paisheh. .. =x..

7 cars was on the go to JB.! so interesting.. we had walkie talkie in each car in case anyone got lost.

we reached at 10 plus..

tada.. this was the place.. add :

Address : Lot 3087, Jalan Ke Tol Kulai, 81000 kulai Johor.

Tel : +6012-797 5088 (Vincent)

that's our battle field..

him having tummyache before the battle!

That's a wound shot on hubby's thigh

*gee*

a wound shot on his upper lips...

couple shot with our overalls..

*fake pilot*

during one of the battles, i was the last girl surviving.!! ahaha.. everyone was calling me "hua mu lan" haha... i sustained quite a few number of bruises too...

after that, i was fairly tired already.. then we proceed to Go kArt!

the racing track.

only get to take 2 pathetic pictures..

the venue is :

Lot 1195, Jalan Bunga Matahari, Taman Plentong Baru, 81750m, Johor Bahru

their contact nos: +60127033733 / +60

127760733

To go thru this place, we have to pass by this forest .. and bumpy roads with alot of cows inside the forest..

didn't manage to take much photos of the go kart there.. but took alot on the puppies and dogs there..

it was very exciting.. the speed of the go kart was only 60km/hr, but it seems like i'm flying out of the car anytime.. so scary.. but fun.!

by the time we left the place, it was already super dark.. and i was totally super tired.. we went to this seafood place to eat.. food was not that nice... probably cos i was too tired.. i didn't eat that much too..

i Totally enjoyed the outdoor fun with hubby tan!

seriously,



i'm falling asleep and falling off the chair just now.. i'm at work , i wanna slp but i can't .. T-T.. i'm really sleepy.. so .. i decided to write a blog post to keep myself awake..



on doctors. and crazy family.



why some family members are just so crazy . really~ they know that their mum or dad is just so difficult to handle, climbing out of bed and pulling all the tubes.. and yet they still stop us from restraining their love ones. that's fine, if they refuse to restrain. then jolly well stay back to look after them.



if they truely love them and care for them .. they should allow us to do it. patients are confused and prone to falls.. to prevent them from falling and for their safety, i think it's a very valid reason for us to restrain them. seriously..



ok, i can accept situations whereby, if they dont' allow us to restrain .. at least stay behind and look after your love ones.. if only u claim that u love them so much. *ah pui* not allowing us to restrain and expect us to look after her. seriously. we're just nurses, not ur part time nanny .. we only got a few staffs .. but we have alot of patients.. not only ur love please.we have to be fair to the other patients too!

i was struggling with one patient just now.. it took 5 nurses and 3 securities to pin her down on to the bed.. thats how tough it is.. and to add on the misery.. i got a hard kick from her on my back... F right.



wad is even "F -er" was .. my friend called this stupid on call Doc, , to come and salvage the situation earlier on.. at least sedate the patient or do something.. what this Bastard did was.. to shout at this patient.. AND also shout at me.. for wad?!! also i dunno..



he dare to open his mouth and ask me "what u wan me to do?" with his stupid fucking attitude.



He's the Doc, and yet he dare to ask me that.. of course just order some sedatives or at least review the patient and think of wad to do .. rather than sitting down on the patient's geriatric chair and rant your anger on us and the patient!



*pissed to the max*



Sometimes.. i really wonder.. why some doctors possess such stupid attitudes and so rude to nurses. i'm not saying all .. some are really nice too.. just a small percentage really piss me off.. and the public still view them as "GOD" because, they have more medical knowledge and they "save" patients .. *ahem*



what the public do not noe. is that. DOCTORs are not with the patients 24 hr, we NURSES are the one,who is with them round the clock. who detect abnormalities.. and report to them. we NURSES are the one who are the first to try to revive the patients.. not them.. they come in to the picture later..



we all know.. the most important period to revive a patient is at the point of time when the patient collapse.. can u imagine, if we don't start compressing and just wait for the DOCTOR to come.. i think the patient will just die.



SO . i think .. saving patients life is team work not just the doctors.. yes. the doctors have more knowledge.. know more things.. but without the nurses. patients life won't be sustained till the doctors arrive..



PLEASE. can the public change the views about nurses and start respecting them.. we are equally saving patients life too.



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We are not Doctor's maid .. okie..



this entry really kept me awake. sister is here! i gotta run!!!!