when i was younger.. i use to keep diaries, alot of them.. writing it daily or frequently.. i have so many things to write about.. why now. i have to crrack my head open for a simple entry..
there is so much going on in my life.. planning for future, completing my degree, buying a house, starting a business and so on..
i dunno where to start , or perhaps i'm stuck.. it's just so difficult, that sometimes i feel like giving up totally and just ignore.
life become boring and monotonous when this happens... i become depressed and negative..
hubby tan hates it when i'm so negative, i hate it too.. i try to prevent myself from feeling that way, but sometimes i just can't. maybe it's the medication . i dunno?
parents have been making scarstic remarks to me, and i complained to hubby tan while he'll say, why do u let this kind of thing affect u .. ? the fact is it does, i tried ignore, but couldn't..
i always questioned my life, why like this why like that, hubby tan is so right, why do i only know how to complain and not find a solution....
when i'm young, i wanna grow older faster, now that i'm older, i wish that i was still young..
when have i become like this?
actually..what am i good for ?
boo~ a scary picture to scare u
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