hey! I'm suppose to be doin my assignment and going to class today,.. what am i doing here.. blogging?!

i'm just too laazy to drag my self all the way to aljunied esp after i know that the lesson is not pertaining to what i'm going to do for my assignment. Talking bout assignment.. ha~ NOT YET STARTED! wth. submission date is like . 31st may. and i'm still taking my own sweet time..
everytime i on the com, i'll be either watchin PPlive, or face booking or doin some random stuff.. what's my prob. =_='''

"Procrastinator " is me.

anyway, many things happened this few weeks while i was MIA-ing firstly, my hospital started some electronic documentation device and shifting of the whole entire team of doctors in the medical dept that cause really chaos in the ward.. wtf .. never rested during night shift at all.. it was so busy for the past week. and for a moment i hated to go work.

2ndly, hubby's gong passed on.. was really sad coz we jus visited him a few days ago before he departed. and jus spoken to him.. though i always see death in the hospital.. i still feel kinda sad at the moment when i saw him strugglin to breathe. makes me wonder, how would one feel when they're just waiting for their time to be up.. scared? or jus expected.? i duno for me i feel it's damn scary.. one moment you're breathing .. one moment you're not. ee..

hubby's mom is really tough, i wish i could be like her, she never complains about anything .. really and she's always so supportive.. she deals with almost everything in the house from earning money, paying bills to doing house work ..cooking for all of them.. and taking care of her own parent and her in-laws.. i really salute to her. probably, it's GOD's help, she's given all her time to GOD to manage. i should do that sometime.weird, it's mother's day , i suppose to be talking bout my mum yet i'm talking bout someone else's mom.. haha..anyway, nothing to talk bout my mum, she's the total opposite of hubby's mum.. she complains ALOT.

nevertheless, all mothers are important ppl.. cos without them we will not be here! i will not be here blogging too.. haha.. sSO..

---happy mother's day to all mothers---

what's going on for me and hubby?




playing simulation golf, and eating jap food.. week after weeks.. ahha

life is still as sweet when i'm with him. after 5 yrs i'm still missing him when he's not with me.. and i still love him as much as i do when i was with him 5 yrs ago.. or love him even more..
i know it sounds super cliche that he's the only motivation for me to do alot of things.. sometimes i sit down and think, if he's not here with me anymore, i would probably break down .. and not work not doing anything..

about marriage, i guess, we can't rush into it.. yes we r all so excited to get married, but when we sit down and think, first thing he told me was, that he feels that he doesn't wanna get married so soon , cos he'll loose all his freedom , he wanna accomplish alot of things that he's not yet done, and i bet he wanna enjoy his singlehood for as long as he can..

we've applied for the flat, still waiting for results.. we'll start baby steps first.

i wish for a lot of things to happen. but. it's not gonna happen . so soon at least not now.

last week was horrible.. i barely had enough slp ..

i even wore wrong socks to work.. see

that's how tired i am..
had group meeting almost everyday.. before work.. made me so tired at work.. finally thurs was the presentation day.. and i had only 3hrs of slp that day. ?! so freaking tired.... but i'm glad, that everything is over.. and result was good! thanks to GOD. =)

having little slp makes me emo.. and depressed, negative and u name it .. everything.. i start to argue find faults with hubby tan.. don't feel like talking bout marriage and stuffs.. . "
i'm so sorry , if in anyway, i've hurt u .. i didn't meant it."

i always loved weekends ever since i started working perm nite.. i had time to spend with hubby tan and family... =) though i aged alot faster than normal shift ppl.. =( fret not.! i've been taking multi vits and antioxident pills.. + healthy meals + gym and exercises~!

hahah. . i hope that helps.during the weekends, we finally went to watch "When In Rome" .. a normal romantic flick.. as usual , i love it, he doesn't really.. but still appreciates the fact that he made an effort to watch with me.. =)

we ate some japanese restaurant.with nice food! i've noticed, that everytime we eat japanese restaurant, he'd be wearing the same shirt... and same pose. hahha

posing with his sushi bento..

me and the washoku bento..

hotate cheese pizza. . *yummy*

we took neoprints.. " we've said, to take it monthly to see how we age as the year pass by "
(unfortunately, can't see the pics, cos i can't scan it)

this bugger made me wait for half an hr while he plays his L4D. argghh~

i was so angry.

though, we quarrelled, fight and hurt each other, at the end of the day, i still crawl back to his arms and we hugged each other..
we've forgive and forget. =)
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..we also went off to eat sakura buffet, with my family at night, after that we went to visit
'Baby K'

scary man posing with K

her famous "burping pose"


she looked so different from the last time i saw her, she's so pretty, looks like the mother.. =)
here are some of the pics.. i'm sure she'll grow up to be a super gorgeous girl!
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the next day , i follow hubby tan to meet his aunt from NZ, and the rest of his family.. ate "unique seafood"

i looked super duper ugly and tired here, cos had sore eyes and couldn't wear specs. and choose the wrong shirt to wear. i bugged him to wear specs with me, to be ugly with me.. =PpP heheh...

and i spent the rest of the day lazing around with him.. =)
how i wish weekend could be longer than weekdays..
i dread going to work.. =(

It's my third nite and i friggin' tired~! one more assignment, one more presentation, plus one more exam to go! good luck to me..

i'm so stressed! everything seems so impossible to me now.. i know i shouldn't feel so negative but.. i can't help it..! can i have 30 hours a day pls. !

i'm so not looking forward to weekends. to have the thought of not spending time with hubby tan.. he's having some seminar , only can meet me on my sleeping day which is fri .. sat and sun i'll have to study.. =(

i gotta drag myself to work.. how sad. this self pity thingy is not going anywhere.. i gotta buck up and start moving on.. 2 more nites to go. and i'm done. FOR the week only.
I need the strength and will to move on.... really.

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Hope everything will be over in the blink of an eye..

it's again.. the weekend.. time to rest and do assignments... i've been gyming for the past 2 weeks.. and guess wad?!

to my suprise i lost 1 kg! i know it's not a big deal but still... it's consider a huge achievement for me !! however.. it's suuperr tiring.. and all the restrictions in food are making me crazy.. =(
to add on my misery, i've had a super bad haircut.... SUPER bad. i'm gonna burn the salon down for cutting my hair like this....

haha.. kiddin..la..

but still it's like this.... what kinda hairstyle is this. ?! *angry* $4.80 worth of haircut. i dunno why the price like this. siaoness.
i wanna puke . each time i look in the mirror. =(

never ever gonna step into this shop @ lakeside MRT station.

nuff said of the ugly hair...
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i dunno why, sometimes i feel a bit taken advantage of by bf, friends, family.. issit bcuz i'm too easy going and that i don't voice out at all.. or issit i'm very easy to bully.. i also dunno..
i feel very down sometimes, but i'm not letting all these things to bother me.. i've got much better things to do.. assignments.. and stuff..

i wish i could just forget all other crazy things and move on.. .. .. i'm tryin to..
i try not to think about marriage now..
it seems too unrealistic..

i'm gonna lose weight, finish my degree, learn driving.... that's my aim. as of now...
alright, super tired now... *yawnz*

gd nite.
a glimpse of my ugly hair again.

Oh . it's good friday today. =)

Harris batam was a failure, however i did enjoy my moments with dear hubby tan.. though the whole place was shabby and boring.. It's the first time i find shopping boring too.. and the best part ... it rained the whole damn 2 days... =( spoiler..

me and hubby tan outside lobby..


sisters heading to the so called 'famous shopping' center


me and sis will crack our head to plan for a nicer trip in the time to come....

yay!
i've finally finished 1 of my many assignments.. phew. it's 3am now.. so damn tired but jus can't slp.. maybe it's the night shift syndrome.. i dunno..

so bored . till i took some random ghostly pic..

anyway.. night shift was good so far.. many more night shifts to come.. I need to lose weight and i'm very serious about it..! Been going to the gym as frequent as possible with sri after work.. *dead serious* .. treadmill for half hour, many many sit ups and crunches.. jus wanna be the BIGGEST LOSER! haha..


the whole of last week was hectic and tiring...

Monday i had school before work,
Tuesday went gym,
Wednesday had school,
Thursday went gym and dentist,
Friday gym , pedicure and granny house, movie...,

ah ma love ;}

beautiful nails finally

me and 'olilil'

Saturday- zonked out, slept till 3pm. went to church at 530, out with hubby, back at home at 12am.. but...... had to chiong my assignment till 3am.... ?!!! wad's the diff?

Sunday- guess wad, gotta wake up at 5am, go JB, for tomb sweeping with family. >< no rest this week! non stop hit combo! I wonder. how did i survived ?! must be the grace of God. =)

i'm so tired. i'm gonna slp now..
*good nite* =)

Perm night started.. school new sem started... alot of assignments.. i'm under super alot of stress... life is never smooth i know.. i'm trying hard to take baby steps to complete everything..

Got my BTO results. i didn't get the flat. in a way happy , in a way sad... sad cos without getting a flat, my mom will not allow me to ROM. happy because, we can always find resale flat.. it's bigger and save the renovation cost.. but. it's damn ex. hubby tan and me are trying to find ways to calculate our finances....

When i'm younger, i used to think that getting married is like super easy, found the man u love, he propose, we marry. but it's not that in reality eh.. not at all..
it's so tough.. there's a lot of things to consider.. lots of $$ involve... everything is so unsure now.. i am really quite lost..

we've lost the ballot, therefore, ROM date delay..wedding AD also will be delay, Taiwan photoshoot also delay.. i really dunno... *so tired*

sometimes .. it feels like i am worrying for everything, nobody to share all these problems with.. cos hubby tan is always working, seldom answer my calls.. but ,whenever he answers, i dunno what to tell him anymore..

adding on to my misery, haiz, i've put on 3 kg of weight, on my tummy mostly.. i hate it.. i can't understand why some ppl can eat so much and don't put on weight, but i don't eat alot, i put on double to amt of weight..

i've started gyming.. and sit-ups, intensive.. gonna last for 3 months.. i don't care whether i'll be super tired after night shift or it's gonna affect my health, these 3 kg of fat or wadever it is.. has to go away.

if by the end of 3 months, my tummy looks nicer, i'll go for belly piercing for rewards :))

off to Batam CM!

well well..

late updates.. as usual.. due to laziness and tiredness.. firstly.

hmm.

so much things to say but dunno how to put it in words.. hubby and i have been trying very hard to plan things.. so that we can move ahead of lives...

money is sucha pain in the ass.. can't plan alot of things without money.. yea.. i remember few years ago when i was with hubby tan, he used to say, money is very important . it's everything.. without it, u can't survive..

i would argue with him and disagree, saying money is not everything.. but seems like now. money is the main thing.

planning wedding is super tuff, dunno where to start and whom to approach.. so messed in the head now..

however, good thing is .. we do argue, but at the end of the day, we hug and kiss and made up.. =)


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i went to work today, and heard bout some rumors that, ppl are not happy that i'm actually placed on perm night for 3 months. What turf
i dun understand , what's there to not happy bout..
i'm in need of money, for lots of reason. for my degree, for my wedding..
To whoever that is out there, not happy with this:
i'm only working for 3 months, and it's no point u getting upset, telling others bout it..
jus get over it.!
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