valleri..

Loreal new facial wash..

2010-11-10T10:21:00.000-08:00

'Purifying for Blemish Prone Skin'

'Normal & Combination Skin'

'Exfoliating Foaming Gentle Scrub '

'dry and sensitive skin'

Beauty info to share :

I've been wanting to blog about this product for quite sometime.. I recently bought this Loreal new series of facial wash 'Perfect Clean'. It was acutally the packaging that caught my eye.. and just so lucky , i ran out of facial wash.. so i decided to give it a try.

I bought it!

The price was reasonable, can't remember how much, approximately 15-16 bucks.. at watson.

Although i was damn tempted to buy the pink one.. cos i love pink so much, but i didn't ,cos it was for dry and sensitive skin.., eventually i bought the white and green one, cos my skin is really prone to blemishes..

It's design is cute, comes with a scrublet, so whenever we use, we should squeeze the gel onto the scrublet and use the scrublet to massage all over ur face.. quite fun actually..

The review for this product is ... 4 out of 5 stars, it's cheap, affordable, and it doesn't dry up the skin.. my skin still feels smooth after each use, unlike certain product, after using, i will feel that my skin is too dry like very tight feeling.... other than that, it also makes me feel very refreshed, as it leaves a minty feeling on my cheeks after wash off.. ( i don't know about other colours, but for the green/white one.. its minty)

After washing off, and dapping dry, don't forget to use ur favourite toner and moisturising cream..

so the verdict is.. it's worth a buy afterall.. =)

'k' from birth till now..

2010-11-09T09:48:00.000-08:00

You know, time really flies.. k is already going to be 9 months.. =) so i decided to blog about her...
k is really a special kid, who is loved by many ppl.. including myself and hubby tan.. she is not my daughter though...

I am not that lucky to have her as my child.. but still.. i love her!

her cuteness is beyond words.. Her little actions makes ppl laugh sometimes.. Above all, i still must praise her mom, who takes so much hardship to bear her through 10 months and take care of her till now..
below are a collection of her progress from birth till now.. enjoy.. =)

This was her when i went to visit her .. she was so tiny.. for an overdue baby.. =)

His first time carrying her..

Her 1st month.. .

Her 2nd month..

3rd month, i manage to meet up with her again..

by then she grown quite a bit..

cute little 4 month old...

5month wild leopard prins.. ;)

6 months...

looking gorgeous.. jus like her mom..

7 months..

when she shaved botak~!

8 months..

finally meet up after so long.. and she's quite a big girl now.. clever and naughty..
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Looking forward to meet her again.. =)

my life is full of babies~!!

jigsaw life

2010-11-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

greetings everyone.

CAUTION!!!

this is a ranting post. with massive loads of complain

It feels so sucky when u are trying to accomplish something and some how .. someone jus come along and says discouraging words for u to ponder whether u should go ahead with ur decision.. same for air stewarding, same for mission .

i know it's easy for u to say , "jus ignore me la.. go ahead with what u think it's right for u ..." or " don't let my words affect u la.. don't let anything affect u .. if u wan it so bad..."

I hate myself sometimes for thinking so much about other ppl's feeling and neglecting my own.. why can't i jus go ahead, and ignore the rest....

i know when i look back someday , i'll be so regretful of the plentiful things that i couldn't achieve now.. due to family.. due to u .. due to bla bla bla.....

sianness to the max..

my life is like a jigsaw puzzle. maybe million piece, something that can't be fixed or .. dunno how to fix it back properly.. it's so messy, so uncertain.. nothin to confirm.. when am i settling down . no idea.. when am i buying house.. no idea.. am i studying adv dip.. freaking no idea.. am i going to continue in SGH... no idea.. going to KK? joining SQ?

wturf.

taking care of baby for one day..

2010-10-18T13:37:00.000-07:00

last sat was a damn busy day for my family.. cos of some chinese God festival .. that my uncle was actively engaged in .. i'm actually totally not interested at all.. was being pulled by my mum to go help out..

it was damn hot. suffocating in the tent itself.. and hubby tan was not there with me .. i was super duper bored to the max ... =( so i decided to volunteer to take care of branson at home..

was quite fun at the start.. cos i love babies.. and sis and edwin was there to help too..

making milk and feeding him, changing diapers and all.. was nothing.. but fun to me.. haha.. cos first time ma....

then...

comes the part where we have to coax him to slp and he just refuses to slp ... playing and talking , climbing up the bed, climbing all over u .. hhaaha...

lucky edwin was still ard, so he managed to put him into the "sarong" and rock him to slp...

so sis and edwin gotta go run some errands, will be back 2 hours later, leaving me and branson and another kid , kenneth, alone at home...

in my heart, i start to panick, what if he starts to shout loudly and cry non-stop, what am i supposed to do.. @-@

kk, but lucky for me, he woke up quietly, drank his milk quietly and watch tv with me....

i had a break in - btw. went downstairs to help out in the festival thingy again...

super tired... it was 10 30 pm already, at this point, branson's mum, wanted to bring branson home to let him drink milk and coax him to slp... so me and lionel tag along..

being over ambitious, we volunteered to look after him while his mum have to go help out ...

horror starts... THat boy jus refuses to slp ... he was so tired already... and we were too!

he just keeps playing and yelling and climbing all over... me and hubby tan was super sleepy already..

it was 12 am.. and he's still not asleep.. i couldn't take it.. i jus force him into the 'sarong' .. and be a bit firm to him.. and rock him to slp.....

finally, when he was about to fall asleep. everyone's home..

In my heart i was thinking.. phew.~ nightmare's over.. i can go and and sleep !

i went home, dead tired , showered and went to sleeping mode.

when i woke up the next day. my hand ache like crazy after carryin branson the whole day..

and for the next 2 days .. had to put plaster on my arm..

now. i realise how crazy it was to take care of a baby.. it's often easy to say than to do.. i understand how K's mum is feeling.. all crazy and emotionally tortured... esp, when K is much bigger size than branson.. younger, much noisy... and more difficult to coax to slp...

i jus hope everything will be fine for her soon and pray to God that she can find some help soon....

But however,

i still love taking care of babies, wouldn't mind to take care of Branson again.. =)

to grow old together...

2010-10-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

now.. this is a really late post on Mrs Lee k.y death..

Never heard much about her.. before, probably cos i was damn ignorant bout political and country stuffs in the past.. but there's so many info about her recently due to her death..

it's really nice to see couple grow old together... i mean, i'm working in the hospital.. with alot of old patients.. whenever i see old husbands visiting their wives.. my heart melts and it lit a smile on my face thinking that there are still such loving couples given the cruel crazy world nowadays..

it's such a bliss, to have ur husband/wife, by ur bedside... comforting u spend the last moment of your life.. at ur deathbed, no more fear jus with him/her holding ur hand..

For Mm Lee, he didn't had the chance, to be by her bedside... due to his health, he was admitted... but to think that they've spent their whole life time together, thru thick and thin, whether in health or sickness... it's so heart warming...

who wouldn't wish to have this kind of relationship....

and lastly... my heartfelt condolence to Mm lee. ..

A model couple for us all to follow..

this is such a sad scene..
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Been feeling super tired recently.. even dozing off during nite shift which i dun usually do.. is my health going downhill? i really wonder... ate super unhealthy things.. like macs, chocolates.. and yup.. oily chinese pancakes.. and errr... potato chips...! at night.. i really can't resist.. i dunno why.. even though i have ulcers..

cooked with super alot of oil. for breakfast.

ate all 3 one short during nite shift when rummy bout this for me!

been busy almost every week.. but at least i get to spend some time with hubby tan..

i wish... there is more time
i wish ... there isn't so many troubles ...
i wish .. there isn't so many incurable sickness....

for the next few weekends till Dec, Hubby tan won't be free.. and me, i'm only free on weekends.. =( what's more sad is that, i'm on leave for the next week and i can't even spend time with him...

it's really no choice, can't really complain much cos he's doing it to earn more money so that we really can get married soon.. else he'll start to scold me..

sometimes.. it jus seems so impossible, but with God, everything is possible.. =)

torturous

2010-10-11T13:12:00.000-07:00

past 1 week was mentally torturous for me. seriously.. for some private matters that ain't suppose to be shared with public..

so badly affected that i've lost some weight, felt super tired.. slept but dream of unecessary things..

i think of death and depressing things.. i just can't stop my mind from all these.. i dunno why. i really hate it cause it's so tiring thinking of things that is not yet happening..
It was suppose to be a happy weekend.. it's still happy .. for liwen and mei.. cos it's their birthday... i'm jus pretending to be happy temporary trying to forget the problems that i'm facing right now..

i really hope that everything will be just fine.. for both me and hubby tan...
i hope it's really not true, of what i'm thinking ...
i hope God can answer my prayer..

mei's bday bash was a blast.. .. she really enjoyed.. it looks more like a baby shower than 21st bday party.. with all the relative babies and all... it was at least more than 10 babies present...
so nice and happy..

i wish i can have my own.. =)

happy birthday to shuyee!

my dream of a perfect family. except that child is not mine.. haha

here's Keira and Branson.. i just love this picture so much...

happy family!

young mommies..

2010-09-15T14:00:00.000-07:00

BABIES and MOMMIES are my topics today.

picture of K and B..

These few nites, instead of working on my portfolio assignment, i've been slacking, and randomly surfing the net , really super random...

came across several blogs link from somewhere. blogs of super young mom. not anywhere else but in Singapore. i'm speechless. and @-@! ( supposed to be a very shocked expression ) ..

there's really alot. and it's not like they shot gun and got married and give birth to the kid, they actually made their own decision and get married, to their guy with BOTH THEIR PARENT'S APPROVAL.!! wow. that's something new, mums and dads are really living in a total new age now. except for my folks.

i can't believe that they agreed so easily to marry off their daughters who are 17 or probably 16 for some, to guys who are barely 21 yet. and with no job, still studying..

i seriously do not know how they survive with not 1 kid but mostly 2 kids...

I'm not looking down on them, in fact, i admire them... at least they are not so irresponsible as to abort the innocent life and continue to live their life as normal ...

i enjoy looking at their blogs and reading their entries on how they found out that they were pregnant, how they cope with pregnancy and the birth process...

it's really lovely when u read it..

i wish, i could get married young and start a family on my own, that was my dream when i was young, i even told my granny that, and recently she started asking me "i thought u said u wanna give birth and get married at 21" ....

haha, laughing to myself in my heart, it's easier said than done. Now reaching the age that we can legally get married, there are so many things to crack our head with that we have no more time to think about our dreams when we were young....

my wish is still the same as before... to be a young mummy

and hopefully "u" are the one who can help me fufil my dream soon..

suuuuper random..

2010-09-13T11:39:00.000-07:00

when i was younger.. i use to keep diaries, alot of them.. writing it daily or frequently.. i have so many things to write about.. why now. i have to crrack my head open for a simple entry..

there is so much going on in my life.. planning for future, completing my degree, buying a house, starting a business and so on..

i dunno where to start , or perhaps i'm stuck.. it's just so difficult, that sometimes i feel like giving up totally and just ignore.

life become boring and monotonous when this happens... i become depressed and negative..

hubby tan hates it when i'm so negative, i hate it too.. i try to prevent myself from feeling that way, but sometimes i just can't. maybe it's the medication . i dunno?

parents have been making scarstic remarks to me, and i complained to hubby tan while he'll say, why do u let this kind of thing affect u .. ? the fact is it does, i tried ignore, but couldn't..

i always questioned my life, why like this why like that, hubby tan is so right, why do i only know how to complain and not find a solution....

when i'm young, i wanna grow older faster, now that i'm older, i wish that i was still young..

when have i become like this?

actually..what am i good for ?

boo~ a scary picture to scare u

Late entry on birthday bash~

2010-08-30T12:28:00.000-07:00

on 20/08/2010... THat's when i turn 23! .. I was working nite as usual ... and below is a picture of my first birthday cake .. prepared by Elaine, Cora, Sri and Soumya..... Thanks so much.. it's full of love!

Too bad only 1 pathetic picture from sri's phone. ahha

Next up.

the long await

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birthday bash @ Grand Corpthorne Waterfront!!!

They hide and scare me with this cake!

one of the main culprit! Thanks so much for everything that u done .. *I love u*
Thanks hubby tan the most and loveliest and melsome~ for the birthday suprise that u guys planned for me .. i was truely touched and shocked.!

wii was awesome.. !

cake was yummy

pizza was yummy too!

PResents were awesome!

That's my lovely cake!

the loveliest!

That umbrella symbolises something.. i'm so touched by it. p/s : i've been carrying it in my bag eversince i got it. hee

eagerly opening up the present

thats the umbrella i'm talking bout~

The new wallet !

look at me and my happiest face! CHANEL perfume!

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Time has passed so fast..... i can't believe i'm 23 already..

From this girl on the right. to ... this...

Happy birthday to mE!

2010-08-23T11:02:00.000-07:00

i disappeared , for quite some time, due to laziness....

i've got so many things to say jus dunno where to start. haha. first of all, i totally didn't do any post on the taiwan trip cos there are massive loads of photos to upload and my com is so so lag.

i enjoyed so much in taiwan, miss the food, the clothes , hot spring, the doggies and everything there... i would love to go back there again..!

just a few snaps of taiwan before i blast u guys with the taiwan photos~~

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Time zooms by so fast that i didn't realise that Branson and Keira have been growing alot.. they are so adorable!

Branson

stole the pic from her mum's acc. haha

Within a short period of time , so many things happen.. so fast.. my dear parents finally went to HDB and confirmed the new house which is located at Boon lay, the one me and lio have been eyeing on... HMmm.. they got it, jus their luck.!

me and sis, super excited .. started to search for home decor books, however, we almost forgot that the house will only be ready in 2014. duh~

and my mum. she got me addicted to this korean drama...

i can't stop watching it.....~!!!!

anyways, next up will be my bday blast post at Grand corpthorne waterfront. ! so stay tuned~! ^-^'''

2010-07-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

how do u define, the man of your life.. how do u know, he's the one for u?

sometimes, life is full of surprises...

i know, i have already found mine..

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Anyways, talk bout something that happened last night, that pissed me off.. i really hate it when patients or patient's family say, " it's oki, don't tie my father, jus let him walk, if he fall , it's OUR PROBLEM. or Don't care bout me, it's my own life, i fall and break my head also MY PROBLEM..
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sorry hor, u fall, or ur whoever fall, is NOT YOUR PROBLEM, it's the staff nurses and the hospital's fault, some even turn their back and say , u nurses never take care of my parents wad, that's why fall...
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end up, we have a black record in our report card.
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i really hate it when patients turn violent, not confused patients, jus normal ppl like us, jus because that got stupid fucking temper, doesn't mean he can push us around like this,
jus because u're old, doesn't mean u are always right,
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"lucky for me, i avoided jus in time, if not, my head will bleed from the flying cup that u had in ur hands u filthy old man."

2010-06-28T01:24:00.000-07:00

i hate mondays!

can i don't go work pls....

i jus wanna slp... yawnzzzZ

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i happen to go to hubby tan's aunt hse over the weekend.. to actually help him to shift a set of sofa back to his place.. his aunt place, is Awesome. I've seen so many nice houses.. but this. is really nice..
a place that i feel so cozy once i step into it..
a place that feels like a res0rt so laid back
feels like u dun wanna leave house once u r in it..

if i ever have the chance to have this house.. i rather give up my job, stay at home and be a full time mom and housewife.. keep the house nice and cozy..

wait for my hubby to come back home and cook nice dishes...

.... i hope this perfect dream comes true..

2010-06-22T14:29:00.000-07:00

..So many things happening .. that sets me thinking..

..so many dreams .. keep repeating.. same thing.. over and over again...

..i dunno why..

..perhaps .. i'm really exhausted...

..need a long break.. from work..

sometimes .. i think to myself, if i'm not a nurse anymore, what else can i do.. for a living?

..... Nothing.

went out with Loveliest that day, to celebrate Ranji bday..one sentence she said, sets me thinking from that day till now..

"patient's life is not up to us to decide , even though they're DIL max.. "

maybe it's due to the environment i'm working at ... seeing death is like nothing to me anymore.. maybe it's due to "go with the flow ... " everyone else is doing it.. so i shall just follow..

i realised it's not fair to the patient..

however, there's nothing i can do bout it , i can either continue to do it , or leave the working environment...

i love nursing.. i feel good helping other ppl... but ... so many other reasons made me hate it..

working with ur best friend can be the worst thing... seeing them do the things that is so not right, and dunno how to bring it across to them nicely so as not to offend them..

working with them, dampens my mood, makes me guilt -stricten...

God, pls give me the strength to do the right things for my patients..

THanks Ranji for enlightening me!

2010-06-09T19:44:00.000-07:00

just a random post..

Looking at this badge makes me feel that time really pass by very fast.. really.. in just a blink of eye .. i've been a staff nurse for 3 yrs.. just 2 more yrs i'm gonna be a Senior staff nurse.

really cannot believe it.. i've been thinking of leaving this job for at least 2 yrs plus.. yet im still stuck ..it seems i can't leave nursing at all.. probably God really pave the road for me to become a nurse to help others..

but think of all the nonsense patients and the many abx. i feel so dread to go work.. hate it..

gonna head back to work tonight..

.. when can i stop working like that...?

2010-05-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

Have i mentioned that i love weekends the most ever since i've been on perm nite.. lolz..

i spent 2 quality days with love. =) watching time traveller's wife, lazing around.. talking love.. going church and eating japanese food. again.. =)

lazing around with mountains of pillows and the tioman turtle..

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so the story begins..

that'a a classic pose of him..

开动咯！

that's my tempura ramen!

uni sushi (sea urchin) -he insisted.

salmon sashimi. is a must

mango + slamon + roe sushi

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and many other more.. too hungry to take pics.. haha

he says. i'm his dummydoll..

i say, he's my clown! wahahaha..

i really really enjoyed myself.. meanwhile.. i've completed my assignment! finally.. and submitted today.. i just hope that i get reasonable marks.. O. ya.. forgot to share the good news.. i actually scored high marks for my previous 2 assignments! Praise the lord..

May the lord be with me always. and him too..

2010-05-23T17:35:00.001-07:00

woah~.. last week after the camping with roomates, i rmb putting in my facebook status "what a fun filled weekend! can we have more of that pls... =)" my wish really did came true! i spent the weekend playing paintballs and go kart in JB! so fun .. but pain.

It started on fri, when i go shopping at beach road with hubby tan, for "overalls" for my size.. search and search.. only to find, the only one dark blue which fit into the criteria.. so we bought, i was reluctant at first, whinning to him , afraid of being the only girl who will wear that.. haha.. he was totally annoyed by me..

sat we set off at 8am. cos hubby was late. the whole troop of 20 plus ppl were waiting for him & me. super paisheh. .. =x..

7 cars was on the go to JB.! so interesting.. we had walkie talkie in each car in case anyone got lost.

we reached at 10 plus..

tada.. this was the place.. add :

Address : Lot 3087, Jalan Ke Tol Kulai, 81000 kulai Johor.

Tel : +6012-797 5088 (Vincent)

that's our battle field..

him having tummyache before the battle!

That's a wound shot on hubby's thigh

*gee*

a wound shot on his upper lips...

couple shot with our overalls..

*fake pilot*

during one of the battles, i was the last girl surviving.!! ahaha.. everyone was calling me "hua mu lan" haha... i sustained quite a few number of bruises too...

after that, i was fairly tired already.. then we proceed to Go kArt!

the racing track.

only get to take 2 pathetic pictures..

the venue is :

Lot 1195, Jalan Bunga Matahari, Taman Plentong Baru, 81750m, Johor Bahru

their contact nos: +60127033733 / +60

127760733

To go thru this place, we have to pass by this forest .. and bumpy roads with alot of cows inside the forest..

didn't manage to take much photos of the go kart there.. but took alot on the puppies and dogs there..

it was very exciting.. the speed of the go kart was only 60km/hr, but it seems like i'm flying out of the car anytime.. so scary.. but fun.!

by the time we left the place, it was already super dark.. and i was totally super tired.. we went to this seafood place to eat.. food was not that nice... probably cos i was too tired.. i didn't eat that much too..

i Totally enjoyed the outdoor fun with hubby tan!

2010-05-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

seriously,

i'm falling asleep and falling off the chair just now.. i'm at work , i wanna slp but i can't .. T-T.. i'm really sleepy.. so .. i decided to write a blog post to keep myself awake..

on doctors. and crazy family.

why some family members are just so crazy . really~ they know that their mum or dad is just so difficult to handle, climbing out of bed and pulling all the tubes.. and yet they still stop us from restraining their love ones. that's fine, if they refuse to restrain. then jolly well stay back to look after them.

if they truely love them and care for them .. they should allow us to do it. patients are confused and prone to falls.. to prevent them from falling and for their safety, i think it's a very valid reason for us to restrain them. seriously..

ok, i can accept situations whereby, if they dont' allow us to restrain .. at least stay behind and look after your love ones.. if only u claim that u love them so much. *ah pui* not allowing us to restrain and expect us to look after her. seriously. we're just nurses, not ur part time nanny .. we only got a few staffs .. but we have alot of patients.. not only ur love please.we have to be fair to the other patients too!

i was struggling with one patient just now.. it took 5 nurses and 3 securities to pin her down on to the bed.. thats how tough it is.. and to add on the misery.. i got a hard kick from her on my back... F right.

wad is even "F -er" was .. my friend called this stupid on call Doc, , to come and salvage the situation earlier on.. at least sedate the patient or do something.. what this Bastard did was.. to shout at this patient.. AND also shout at me.. for wad?!! also i dunno..

he dare to open his mouth and ask me "what u wan me to do?" with his stupid fucking attitude.

He's the Doc, and yet he dare to ask me that.. of course just order some sedatives or at least review the patient and think of wad to do .. rather than sitting down on the patient's geriatric chair and rant your anger on us and the patient!

*pissed to the max*

Sometimes.. i really wonder.. why some doctors possess such stupid attitudes and so rude to nurses. i'm not saying all .. some are really nice too.. just a small percentage really piss me off.. and the public still view them as "GOD" because, they have more medical knowledge and they "save" patients .. *ahem*

what the public do not noe. is that. DOCTORs are not with the patients 24 hr, we NURSES are the one,who is with them round the clock. who detect abnormalities.. and report to them. we NURSES are the one who are the first to try to revive the patients.. not them.. they come in to the picture later..

we all know.. the most important period to revive a patient is at the point of time when the patient collapse.. can u imagine, if we don't start compressing and just wait for the DOCTOR to come.. i think the patient will just die.

SO . i think .. saving patients life is team work not just the doctors.. yes. the doctors have more knowledge.. know more things.. but without the nurses. patients life won't be sustained till the doctors arrive..

PLEASE. can the public change the views about nurses and start respecting them.. we are equally saving patients life too.

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We are not Doctor's maid .. okie..

this entry really kept me awake. sister is here! i gotta run!!!!

2010-05-16T19:49:00.000-07:00

wooO~

i had loads of fun during the weekend seriously..well well, i'm supposed to go BBQ with the ward ppl .. but ...geez, i didn't turn up... but .i had Outdoor fun with the room mates!!!The roomates decided to head down to West coast Park for camping.. seriously, this is the first time i go camping ever since my last camping during Pri 5. that's like how long ago? 12 yrs ?@@!
my gosh. haha.. time really flies..anyway.. we really enjoyed , though not the slping part cos we've been invaded by ants and flies, and hubby was totally defeated by them.. we even thought of giving up and going back home in the middle of the night.. haha.. but still, we survived!! slept and woke up with a beautiful morning.. with RainBOW!!!.. loads of picture to upload.. let the pictures do the talking then ..........

haha, over excited taking pics in the mrt..

shopping for stuffs.. @ NTUC

arriving at the Camp site setting up the tents

that's hubby tan trying to set the tent..

completion ..

starting the fire..

after starting the fire.. he's still very enthu about pitching the tent..still continue meddling with the strings and tent pins.. madness.. haha

well , how could i bear to let hubby tan do all by himself.. i went over to help him in the end.. lolz..

tada.. viola. done~

started BBQ-ing all the yummy food! it was surprisingly yummy...though the sotong was super spicy.haha..

yups, that's an ugly pic of me, bbq-ing dou miao + butter, it was later improvised by hubby tan by adding satay sauce, and also honey and butter dou miao. it was nice ok.. =) don't play play..

at the end of the day, a super tired me .. after night shift and all, didn't really rest much.. can u see from the pic that i'm super tired?!

i woke hubby up early in the mornin to see some squirrels running everywhere.. on the trees across the pavements.. then he's over excited about kite flying!

last pic with our love nest!

that was the beautiful rainbow spotted by hubby tan.

we all headed back after tat, and yes, my weekend is over. T-T.. times seems to fly when i spend time with hubby tan... i really miss him now..!!! can't wait for next weekend with fun filled JB seafood trip with his boss and friends.. at the same time i must faster complete my PPI assignment!!!

Time to go slp ...

GOod Nite World.

2010-05-09T17:31:00.000-07:00

hey! I'm suppose to be doin my assignment and going to class today,.. what am i doing here.. blogging?!

i'm just too laazy to drag my self all the way to aljunied esp after i know that the lesson is not pertaining to what i'm going to do for my assignment. Talking bout assignment.. ha~ NOT YET STARTED! wth. submission date is like . 31st may. and i'm still taking my own sweet time..
everytime i on the com, i'll be either watchin PPlive, or face booking or doin some random stuff.. what's my prob. =_='''

"Procrastinator " is me.

anyway, many things happened this few weeks while i was MIA-ing firstly, my hospital started some electronic documentation device and shifting of the whole entire team of doctors in the medical dept that cause really chaos in the ward.. wtf .. never rested during night shift at all.. it was so busy for the past week. and for a moment i hated to go work.

2ndly, hubby's gong passed on.. was really sad coz we jus visited him a few days ago before he departed. and jus spoken to him.. though i always see death in the hospital.. i still feel kinda sad at the moment when i saw him strugglin to breathe. makes me wonder, how would one feel when they're just waiting for their time to be up.. scared? or jus expected.? i duno for me i feel it's damn scary.. one moment you're breathing .. one moment you're not. ee..

hubby's mom is really tough, i wish i could be like her, she never complains about anything .. really and she's always so supportive.. she deals with almost everything in the house from earning money, paying bills to doing house work ..cooking for all of them.. and taking care of her own parent and her in-laws.. i really salute to her. probably, it's GOD's help, she's given all her time to GOD to manage. i should do that sometime.weird, it's mother's day , i suppose to be talking bout my mum yet i'm talking bout someone else's mom.. haha..anyway, nothing to talk bout my mum, she's the total opposite of hubby's mum.. she complains ALOT.

nevertheless, all mothers are important ppl.. cos without them we will not be here! i will not be here blogging too.. haha.. sSO..

---happy mother's day to all mothers---

what's going on for me and hubby?

playing simulation golf, and eating jap food.. week after weeks.. ahha

life is still as sweet when i'm with him. after 5 yrs i'm still missing him when he's not with me.. and i still love him as much as i do when i was with him 5 yrs ago.. or love him even more..
i know it sounds super cliche that he's the only motivation for me to do alot of things.. sometimes i sit down and think, if he's not here with me anymore, i would probably break down .. and not work not doing anything..

about marriage, i guess, we can't rush into it.. yes we r all so excited to get married, but when we sit down and think, first thing he told me was, that he feels that he doesn't wanna get married so soon , cos he'll loose all his freedom , he wanna accomplish alot of things that he's not yet done, and i bet he wanna enjoy his singlehood for as long as he can..

we've applied for the flat, still waiting for results.. we'll start baby steps first.

i wish for a lot of things to happen. but. it's not gonna happen . so soon at least not now.

2010-04-18T19:23:00.000-07:00

last week was horrible.. i barely had enough slp ..

i even wore wrong socks to work.. see

that's how tired i am..
had group meeting almost everyday.. before work.. made me so tired at work.. finally thurs was the presentation day.. and i had only 3hrs of slp that day. ?! so freaking tired.... but i'm glad, that everything is over.. and result was good! thanks to GOD. =)

having little slp makes me emo.. and depressed, negative and u name it .. everything.. i start to argue find faults with hubby tan.. don't feel like talking bout marriage and stuffs.. . "
i'm so sorry , if in anyway, i've hurt u .. i didn't meant it."

i always loved weekends ever since i started working perm nite.. i had time to spend with hubby tan and family... =) though i aged alot faster than normal shift ppl.. =( fret not.! i've been taking multi vits and antioxident pills.. + healthy meals + gym and exercises~!

hahah. . i hope that helps.during the weekends, we finally went to watch "When In Rome" .. a normal romantic flick.. as usual , i love it, he doesn't really.. but still appreciates the fact that he made an effort to watch with me.. =)

we ate some japanese restaurant.with nice food! i've noticed, that everytime we eat japanese restaurant, he'd be wearing the same shirt... and same pose. hahha

posing with his sushi bento..

me and the washoku bento..

hotate cheese pizza. . *yummy*

we took neoprints.. " we've said, to take it monthly to see how we age as the year pass by "
(unfortunately, can't see the pics, cos i can't scan it)

this bugger made me wait for half an hr while he plays his L4D. argghh~

i was so angry.

though, we quarrelled, fight and hurt each other, at the end of the day, i still crawl back to his arms and we hugged each other..
we've forgive and forget. =)
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'Baby K'

scary man posing with K

her famous "burping pose"

she looked so different from the last time i saw her, she's so pretty, looks like the mother.. =)
here are some of the pics.. i'm sure she'll grow up to be a super gorgeous girl!
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the next day , i follow hubby tan to meet his aunt from NZ, and the rest of his family.. ate "unique seafood"

i looked super duper ugly and tired here, cos had sore eyes and couldn't wear specs. and choose the wrong shirt to wear. i bugged him to wear specs with me, to be ugly with me.. =PpP heheh...

and i spent the rest of the day lazing around with him.. =)
how i wish weekend could be longer than weekdays..
i dread going to work.. =(

2010-04-07T04:56:00.000-07:00

It's my third nite and i friggin' tired~! one more assignment, one more presentation, plus one more exam to go! good luck to me..

i'm so stressed! everything seems so impossible to me now.. i know i shouldn't feel so negative but.. i can't help it..! can i have 30 hours a day pls. !

i'm so not looking forward to weekends. to have the thought of not spending time with hubby tan.. he's having some seminar , only can meet me on my sleeping day which is fri .. sat and sun i'll have to study.. =(

i gotta drag myself to work.. how sad. this self pity thingy is not going anywhere.. i gotta buck up and start moving on.. 2 more nites to go. and i'm done. FOR the week only.
I need the strength and will to move on.... really.

Hope everything will be over in the blink of an eye..

2010-04-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

it's again.. the weekend.. time to rest and do assignments... i've been gyming for the past 2 weeks.. and guess wad?!

to my suprise i lost 1 kg! i know it's not a big deal but still... it's consider a huge achievement for me !! however.. it's suuperr tiring.. and all the restrictions in food are making me crazy.. =(
to add on my misery, i've had a super bad haircut.... SUPER bad. i'm gonna burn the salon down for cutting my hair like this....

haha.. kiddin..la..

but still it's like this.... what kinda hairstyle is this. ?! *angry* $4.80 worth of haircut. i dunno why the price like this. siaoness.
i wanna puke . each time i look in the mirror. =(

never ever gonna step into this shop @ lakeside MRT station.

nuff said of the ugly hair...
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i dunno why, sometimes i feel a bit taken advantage of by bf, friends, family.. issit bcuz i'm too easy going and that i don't voice out at all.. or issit i'm very easy to bully.. i also dunno..
i feel very down sometimes, but i'm not letting all these things to bother me.. i've got much better things to do.. assignments.. and stuff..

i wish i could just forget all other crazy things and move on.. .. .. i'm tryin to..
i try not to think about marriage now..
it seems too unrealistic..

i'm gonna lose weight, finish my degree, learn driving.... that's my aim. as of now...
alright, super tired now... *yawnz*

gd nite.
a glimpse of my ugly hair again.

Oh . it's good friday today. =)

2010-03-27T12:07:00.000-07:00

Harris batam was a failure, however i did enjoy my moments with dear hubby tan.. though the whole place was shabby and boring.. It's the first time i find shopping boring too.. and the best part ... it rained the whole damn 2 days... =( spoiler..

me and hubby tan outside lobby..

sisters heading to the so called 'famous shopping' center

me and sis will crack our head to plan for a nicer trip in the time to come....

yay!
i've finally finished 1 of my many assignments.. phew. it's 3am now.. so damn tired but jus can't slp.. maybe it's the night shift syndrome.. i dunno..

so bored . till i took some random ghostly pic..

anyway.. night shift was good so far.. many more night shifts to come.. I need to lose weight and i'm very serious about it..! Been going to the gym as frequent as possible with sri after work.. *dead serious* .. treadmill for half hour, many many sit ups and crunches.. jus wanna be the BIGGEST LOSER! haha..

the whole of last week was hectic and tiring...

Monday i had school before work,
Tuesday went gym,
Wednesday had school,
Thursday went gym and dentist,
Friday gym , pedicure and granny house, movie...,

ah ma love ;}

beautiful nails finally

me and 'olilil'

Saturday- zonked out, slept till 3pm. went to church at 530, out with hubby, back at home at 12am.. but...... had to chiong my assignment till 3am.... ?!!! wad's the diff?

Sunday- guess wad, gotta wake up at 5am, go JB, for tomb sweeping with family. >< no rest this week! non stop hit combo! I wonder. how did i survived ?! must be the grace of God. =)

i'm so tired. i'm gonna slp now..
*good nite* =)

2010-03-18T04:57:00.000-07:00

Perm night started.. school new sem started... alot of assignments.. i'm under super alot of stress... life is never smooth i know.. i'm trying hard to take baby steps to complete everything..

Got my BTO results. i didn't get the flat. in a way happy , in a way sad... sad cos without getting a flat, my mom will not allow me to ROM. happy because, we can always find resale flat.. it's bigger and save the renovation cost.. but. it's damn ex. hubby tan and me are trying to find ways to calculate our finances....

When i'm younger, i used to think that getting married is like super easy, found the man u love, he propose, we marry. but it's not that in reality eh.. not at all..
it's so tough.. there's a lot of things to consider.. lots of $$ involve... everything is so unsure now.. i am really quite lost..

we've lost the ballot, therefore, ROM date delay..wedding AD also will be delay, Taiwan photoshoot also delay.. i really dunno... *so tired*

sometimes .. it feels like i am worrying for everything, nobody to share all these problems with.. cos hubby tan is always working, seldom answer my calls.. but ,whenever he answers, i dunno what to tell him anymore..

adding on to my misery, haiz, i've put on 3 kg of weight, on my tummy mostly.. i hate it.. i can't understand why some ppl can eat so much and don't put on weight, but i don't eat alot, i put on double to amt of weight..

i've started gyming.. and sit-ups, intensive.. gonna last for 3 months.. i don't care whether i'll be super tired after night shift or it's gonna affect my health, these 3 kg of fat or wadever it is.. has to go away.

if by the end of 3 months, my tummy looks nicer, i'll go for belly piercing for rewards :))

off to Batam CM!

2010-03-08T06:28:00.000-08:00

well well..

late updates.. as usual.. due to laziness and tiredness.. firstly.

hmm.

so much things to say but dunno how to put it in words.. hubby and i have been trying very hard to plan things.. so that we can move ahead of lives...

money is sucha pain in the ass.. can't plan alot of things without money.. yea.. i remember few years ago when i was with hubby tan, he used to say, money is very important . it's everything.. without it, u can't survive..

i would argue with him and disagree, saying money is not everything.. but seems like now. money is the main thing.

planning wedding is super tuff, dunno where to start and whom to approach.. so messed in the head now..

however, good thing is .. we do argue, but at the end of the day, we hug and kiss and made up.. =)

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i went to work today, and heard bout some rumors that, ppl are not happy that i'm actually placed on perm night for 3 months. What turf
i dun understand , what's there to not happy bout..
i'm in need of money, for lots of reason. for my degree, for my wedding..
To whoever that is out there, not happy with this:
i'm only working for 3 months, and it's no point u getting upset, telling others bout it..
jus get over it.!
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2010-03-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

here's baby keira ...

with me and hubby...

so cute.. and lovely.. pretty like the mum..

first day when i saw her..

i had so much thoughts running thru my heads..

anyway..

I'm sure she'll be pampered by lots of ppl.. =)

2010-02-26T20:02:00.000-08:00

yay~

4 nites finished with a zoom~ 4 peaceful nites.. except for some 'gaga' patients.. haha.. thank God for such peaceful nites.. pls pls pls let all my perm nite duties be like that for at least the next 3 months...=)

amt of abx i've given.. part of it..

one thing for sure, i'm gonna put on pounds of weight.. now i'm still in the midst of struggling to loose that' blob of thing' appearing at my tummy..

i'm sick and tired of my hair... gonna go for a new look.. hope it'll be nice.. =)

sometimes i wonder..

why must one crave to know their future?

going for tarot card reading, or palm reading... fortune telling...

issn't it scary? to know that ...

"hey, this year you're gonna suffer a huge blow.. "
"hey .. your health... is failing.. esp. your sex organ.."
wahha..

for me, i think, the more the person predicts your future, the more you're think about it. the more it'll happen. .. that's law of attraction..

then one will blame themselves for having a bad life and all...

conclusion
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Just live a happy life. and forget bout knowing the future.

Ps: blogpost u hubby tan. .. =)

2010-02-19T08:59:00.000-08:00

I met 'K'
she's so cute..
so small..

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i'm glad that the decision made was right.
at least for now...

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pics will be up soon..

2010-02-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

this is gonna be a super random post

time flies..

really.... i'm gonna be back to work soon ... jus 3 more days later.. shyt i really hate it..

stupid 24/3's son came back to the ward and complain to sister saying that the nurse (me) who discharge his mother never taught him how to do dressing.. fucking birdbrain ass hole. i stood there for freaking half an hour describing to him how to do the simple dressing and the precautions to take..and all the dressing to use and even gave him one extra sample to keep in case he wanna purchase it. even told him where to buy it..
dont understand why ppl are jus so stupid. plain stupid and full of himself. so what he's a bit educated.? so what's the big deal?
freakin pissed.
i've tolerated him for that 5 days. of his mum hospitalisation.. he's mum is also another lunatic. she was brought to showered early in the morning by one of my colleague, later in the morning, she claims that no one showered her, and insisted to be showered if not she will complain. what's this? threatening or wad? best thing is that the mum is totally normal not that she is demented or crazy she's absolutely normal..
i'm very ashamed that , sadly to say alot of the singaporeans act this way.. a little bit of things ,complain, more of complain than compliment.
i dun hear ppl saying, "hey, nurse, thanks so much for your kind instructions.. appreciate it.." as much as ppl saying " nurse, why didn't u do this, why didn't u do that.. "

i hope these birdbrain ppl can reflect upon their stupid actions..
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this CNY, wasn't really as nice as previous year, probably cos we didn't go back m'sia.. all we do is stay in s'pore to eat .. eat and slp, play .. tat's all...
i've got to study too.. greatz! cos my exam is on mon...
i'm feeling super lousy .. cos after this holiday season, will be a gruesome 3 months night shift with loads of assignments to do..
i'm very afraid i can't cope..

didn't take much photos, didn't have the mood to do that.. most of the photos are in other ppl's camera...
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I'm excited to meet 'K' .

We've all waited for months!

today is the day... =)

there's so many things happening in life.. here i am blogging, my friend is delivering now , my other friend is assisting in delivering her baby!
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i've spent so much time during this new year with hubby tan .. and i really love it.. i wanna thank him for helping me so much during this 2 months.. it's the first year after 5 yrs without receiving valentine's day gift from me.. i'm super sorry...

CNY is coming to an end.. and my nightmare is starting..!!!!

2010-02-12T18:47:00.001-08:00

Been so busy the past few days.. that i cld hardly have enough sleep.. woke up late for 2 days to work.. luckily late for 10 mins only..

due to the period of Chinese new year, alot of massive discharging of the patient is happening... so much so that, in the past 2 days i've been discharging 9 to 10 patients ... it's not common in our ward.. i felt super tired after tat..

some nonsense family member demanding so much things from us.. being so sarcastic.. i dun understand ..
where's their value of modesty?
why must they show off to ppl when they knew just a little bit of knowledge.?
i't's really annoying..

i hate being "plastic".. but being in my line.. most of the time i have to be "plastic".. be it to the upper level or patients.. i really hate the feeling of it.. u knoww, smile and say "ya ya... i understand... bla .. bla .. bla.. yes sister... "

everyday after my work , i look forward to meeting hubby tan.. but not everyday he's free.. hmm... with the presence of him around just makes me feel better..

thanks for making me laugh sometimes.. =)

today is eve of chinese new year, my cousins will be coming over, so excited to meet my cousin whom i've not met for 5 to 6 yrs.. cos she was in aussie.. we'll be having our "Tuan Yuan Fan".. yay! .. Time to get fat again.. =)

Happy Chinese new year everyone!

out with hubby tan..

2010-02-05T19:41:00.000-08:00

Suprisingly fast, magnet journey came to an end.. everybody's so relieved.. now who's worrying are those who are at the upper level, whether we get the magnet recognition or not, depends on the 4 auditors who came to audit us, and we have to wait for another 90 days before they break the news..

Ytd, after 6 days of work, finally it's my off day.. and i went out with hubby tan!..
firstly, had my dental appt, fixed in a new retainer look a like thingy on my lower set of teeth.. and it's freaking painful... =(

After that we went off to vivo..ate sushi tei!
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as usual, his cheekiness..

very carefully choosing his food..

me posing with the sushi tei chopstick..

my fav! presenting the mouthwatering... " Mayonnaise Hotate "

Thanks hubby tan for treating me some nice food~ yummy~
and
for buying this i slim for me..

i'll try it and blog about it in another few weeks time...

we walked around.. and look at pets.. as usual, his favourite spot.. pet safari.. then head off to ring hunting! .. we tried on several pair of engagement ring... the one that we liked most is from SK, price is rather reasonable.. only $800 ++ for a pair.. =) that. we'll keep KIV..
so nice ring hunting with hubby tan.. makes me wonder when will our big day arrive..

next stop.. somerset 313..
pretty boring cuz of the big crowd, hubby tried on some clothes, which look like Bangladesh style.. not trying to be racist here, hmm.. must say it looks quite ok on him..

took some snap shot of him..

trying to act model..
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then my turn to try.. while hubby tan sat outside waiting for me..

i love this dress alot.. i'm gonna go back to buy it..hee hee

after that we went to paragon , hubby tan is meeting his student there , to collect payment.. off we go , to meet jaz and regine and felicia, ex- emirates crew. *envy*
nothing much, we headed home cuz hubby had to do a conference call with all his students.. back at his place.. waited for him to finish the call and went back to my home..

such a pleasant date i had with hubby tan.. after 5 yrs, our love still sizzles.. =)

China town and the stupid uncle.

2010-02-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Went to china town with my sis and her bf ytd despite of suuper tiredness.. worked morning shift, rushed to church.. rushed back home slept here and there throughout the journey .. finally reached home, they said, " waiting for u only leh.. faster leh..." then off we go.. vrooom~!

CHina Town.

as usual, full of people.. full of chee ko pek china ppl staring at us.. full of ppl shouting trying to get others to buy their things.. it's not even cheap lor..
super ex.. but still we bought some.. donated $2 to a beggin ah ma.. so ke lian..

my sis's bf went to this particular shop in chinatown. watch shop. he went there to change his watch's battery, this uncle is so rude and siao.. he's so rough, and dun even know what the hell he's doing.. we're so angry with him.. he scratched my sis's bf watch.. expensive watch.. and spoke very rudely to my sis..

This stupid uncle

went to eat at maxwell hawker ..bought some durians home to eat..i know i not suppose to eat durian due to high in fat and carbs. but i jus couldn't resist. =( end up regretting. it's always the case..

today is magnet day 1, everything was ok.. atmosphere was quite tensed.. seriously, i hate this kinda audits. it jus shows how fake we are.. haiz, outsiders won't understand..

i'm feeling kind of moody nowadays, thinking bout marriage, seeing friends getting married and all.. jus feels wierd..

ending here tonight, i'm morning. .. 4 more hours b4 work starts.. boring to the max.

wonders when will be my big day..

p/s: jus viewed XX's blog, omg, the resort they stayed in phuket is super nice! i wanna go there too....

Masquerade wedding

2010-01-29T09:37:00.000-08:00

Went to ahm's place jus now before meeting hubby tan.. and took some pics with Branson aka "olili" our nickname for him.. haha he's such a cutie .. starting to make some noise already.. so cute!! unfortunately, i can only stay a while.. and rushed off to attend Jaz's sis wedding..

Today's Jaz's sister wedding.. it was really grand, held at Swissotel~ =) It was really sweet, makes me wonder how will my wedding look like...
I'm sure hubby tan will definitely sing on stage, that one he can't miss..
he did sang to me on my 21st bday wad... hahaha..
i'm glad to attend this kind of wedding cos it'll give me some ideas to create my own special wedding.. i was telling hubby tan that maybe he would like the theme to be victorian style since he like "lestat the Vampire" so much! hahaha
their theme was masquerade.. damn nice.. managed to take some snap shot.. of me and hubby tan..

my "Zorro"

Had a random chat with wayne, he asked me how long i've been working in the hosp... and stuffs.. he asked me whether i'm interested in working private.. !! of course yes la.. been sourcing for so many jobs.. really hope he can help me out this time.. can't wait to get out of sgh!

Arghh` talking bout work.. i'm working Pm tml.. super sux.. having headache now.. gonna hit the sack. gud nite ya'll..

i'm missing hubby tan. the one and only i love.

yayness!

2010-01-28T08:18:00.001-08:00

Ytd, had some crazy time in the ward, playing sneezies.. writing report in the dark, carrying torch light to give IVs.. haha.. circuit maintenance that's why no lights.. in certain area.. can u imagine if the whole hospital got no lights?! it'll be like OCH. next thing u know, the patient u're nursing isn't really a human at all .. hahah..
nite shift with some colleagues can be quite fun .. and Thank God, my 3 nites was so peaceful! maybe God realised i've been slogging for the past few weeks at ward, he decided to grant me 3 peaceful nite with fun colleagues.. =)

2 ugly bettys

Eating choco donuts with stains on the teeth!

Rush off to meet hubby tan straight after work!

must take a nice pic after dolling up!

when i reached his place, i waited 10 mins outside his house, sitting down like a poor girl.. cos he's in the toilet!!!
Planned for movies initially
end up sleeping the whole day..

i wanted to watch this:

"My Ex"

instead he wanna watch this:

"The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus"

end up we watched none. haha

I've been cracking my head thinking bout venues for ROMs, and local bridal package.. and things to get ready for ROM.. guess wad. my "lovely" hubby tan.. just told me that, no need to ROM separately, jus do it all in the same day.. can save more money..
T-T.. search so hard in the end he decided, not to have a ROM separately.. =( quite sad actually .. when i see Grace's Rom, it's so nice lor... but come to think of it.. maybe not necessary lo.. guess .. i'll have to wait for another couple of years before my Big day arrives..

niwayz,

Yayness to no more nites, and 2 days off..!
Yayness to meeting hubby tan today and spent time with him.. =))

my last nite, and more nites to come..

2010-01-27T00:27:00.000-08:00

我一定是想结婚想疯了。。
i jus feel like settling down.. many said, i'll regret my decision of wanting to get married young,
but i disagree and i know my decision will never be wrong..

yuu huU~

Tonite will be the last nite .. and tonight's gonna be a good nite =)
"all 's well.. "-->( that's me and mariyat's fav quote of the nite..)
but unfortunately, there'll be more nites to come.. cos i jus requested sister to put me on perm nite for 3months, due to financial constraints.. so i hope it'll be granted..
though it's little money, still there's extra money..

that's how i look like if i work on nite..
with the specs except the uniform is white now..

it's gonna be damn tired, juggling my classes and nite shifts but i've no choice cos that's the path that i chose.

i'm still wondering wad to do after my degree:
1) continue rotting in w73
2) industrial nurse
3) I.R nurse
4) Mt E clinic
5) Research nurse
6) "Tai tai" ( hahhaha. jk)

I've got until year end to decide, seriously , i can't stand working in wards, it's so stress and i've worked there for 3 yrs, within the 3 yrs, so many ppl quit, recently one of them jus quit..
I didn't know nursing was like this then. arghh..

**wad's the meaning of nurse to the public?**
"uniformed Maid?"
we're worse than maids..

The only thing i look forward to is spending time with my family.. i realised.. esp my granny..
i dunno y, but it jus feel better spending time with them , talking bout the past and all.. rather than spending time with other ppl.. going out to eat and spend money....

ahm's with corgi

mum with corgi

i love this candid shot. haha

"家人永远还是最好的.."

we may be angry with each other, but sometimes it's jus unavoidable, at the end of the day , we'll realise that the most support , came from family..

back for 2010

2010-01-26T03:12:00.000-08:00

A new year, a new beginning..

with loads of stress..

To begin with , let's welcome the arrival of Branson Lee who is the new family member in our family tree! He arrive on 5th Nov 2009.. he's now 3 months lo.. how adorable..

how cute right.. i wish i could have one myself... getting married and all.. i've attended tons of wedding, nice ones, always wished that my day will come soon.. looks like it's not happening that fast... due to financial constraints..

however, the good news is.. hubby tan and i signed up a bridal shoot at taiwan.. at a bridal fair at suntec.. it cost us bout 2k. air tix we have to pay ourselves.. i'm so looking forward to it.. really.. =).. http://www.fpwed.com

Next progressive move that we made is, we entered our name for the BTO houses at limbang Green at CCK, hopefully we get it.. by march we'll know..!

Next we'll have to worry bout Roms, venue, Rom shoots.. and packages..

all about money $$.. how i wish i can have more money... headache headache..

It's amazing how we all grow up so fast, a few years ago, i was in sec sch, this sch school girl , daydreaming bout the perfect wedding and all,
And then i was stuck in poly with nursing thinking that i will definitely quit once i graduate cos i'm not bonded..
Then i moved on to SGH life, working my ass off, thinking of quitting every now and then.. yet i stayed on for 3 yrs..
Now worst thing is i'm taking my degree?! in Nursing.. completing soon...end of the year... i hope i pass all my results.. =)

have to go work now lo! 2nd nite!

Oo absence makes the heart fonder oO

2009-07-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

sometimes .. i wonder, "absence makes the heart fonder ." this quote.. issit really true or not...
i've not been having chance to talk to hubby tan properly.. , if i am , on the phone with him .. it's usually not more than 10 mins.. he's busy and i'm busy too..

there's so many things i wanna talk to him.. tell him my problems.. and stress... no chance..
have to wait till sat ...

these few days, we never meet, never chat properly.. i wonder whether he'll miss me? i don't think so.. probably.. he's too held up at work.. ..

i'm super tired.. this feeling . i dunno how to describe.. really..

- SOS -

2009-07-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

i'm not feeling good...
i'm super stressed..
super broked... super tired..

i have no mood to go for a holiday now...
even though it's like.. only a few days away..

cos when i come back , i have tons of things to settle...

gotta change my dental appt time,
settle my bills, go my gynae appt. go to cpf to settle somethings terminate my true yoga
have to email the curtin ppl to swap lessons...
gotta change my roster again.. to fit into the curtin schedule..
cos apparently, i can't skip tutorials..
i'll have to work in the morning... study at night..
go for course from 8 to 5.. and study from 7 to 9pm
i know, that's the sacrifice that i have to make..
and i should whine and complain but...
but i'm damn tired.

it's not really started yet, and i'm already down with flu...

money is really a big problem.. i really dunno how ..

i jus feel like arghh~ very stressed.

exams are in OCT?!
wad?

i've not met hubby tan for so long.. i can't even have time for him.. no. wait, i dun even have time for myself.. what am i talking about..

help me!

Oo countdown to my AL oO

2009-07-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

yay!

3 more days , i'll be free from the crazy pts from the ward... the last thing i wan now, is to have a flu, esp now, during the H1n1 period, i'm at the high risk category..

if i'm really down with the stupid flu, i have to stop going to Thailand and... my holiday will be ruined.. i don't wan~!

work is kinda relax these few days, esp my night shift, if all the night shifts are like that, i wouldn't mind working permanent night shift, haha, jus that i'll look super haggard and my skin will spoil.. fear not~ ! i'll be trying out these facial product that i have received from 'Kawaii tokyo'..

my sis msged me while i was working today, "sis, u bought something from japan ar?
me: " no"
sis: " but i received some package from japan.. "

i was super shocked, excited.. it's actually that product, mini sample... i jus randomly join them as a member, didn't expect to receive the sample.. haha.. anyway, i'ma try these products, can bring them to thailand .. it comes with a mini pouch! so pretty..

shall expect a slight change in my skin~!

Oo my day with sri oO

2009-07-17T05:26:00.000-07:00

finallyy... 4 nights finished.. peacefully,

no RMS, no falls, no dealths .. nothing .. how i wish all my nights are like that..
had a whole loads of fun working with sri, talking to her bout everything under the sun.

can u imagine, we actually talked about ghost stories at the most erriest place in the ward.. in the middle of the night when something happened..

the auntomatic senor tap goes off on its own.. on and off...

the wind gets chiller.. patients complaining super cold..

the lights went off!

damn scaryy ok..

usually after 4 nights, i'll be super drained.. but i don't care, i still went out with sri..! wahaha.. it's super fun. really..

we went to watch this show called "obsessed" .. believe me, it's hell of a nice show! by beyonce. whee-u-wheet. . i wouldn't come to know of this show until sri recommended.. =) we watched it at freaking 11 am. we got almost the whole theatre to ourselves as there's less than 1o ppl.. it's a pity that we didn't bring the camera to capture tat.. ahaha

after that i went to get the long sought- after sun glasses for hubby tan.. only getting a reply from him when i called him ," eh, i very busy now leh. don't keep calling"

super pissed.. =x

shouts to hubby tan: "i know, u're busy , i jus need to find out where is the shop, and how does it look like. that's all.. i'm not taking 1 hour of ur freaking precious time."

all the more. that motivates me to go on and read the "why men love bitches ".. i'm gonna snatch one copy one of these days..

by then, my stomach had already reach a hurting point of 100%. gastric. frustrated and sick at the same time.. sri got scared.. she tot i would faint. haha..

after that, we went off to chinatown to get our hair extensions done.. whereby after tat sri totally regretted. . i thought mine was ok... haha =)

she went off to foot massage, the sleepy me. can't take it, so i went back home.. by a cab, there's a small commotion at the taxi stand. i really hate.
this crazy man. it's freaking singaporean style. he's crazy... i was queing infront of him when a huge limosine taxi came by (SMRT), i had no cash , i need to pay by nets.. so i offered him first, i told him this cab doesn't provide nets services .. he said nvm nvm, then he asked some aunties to go first... realising it's a limo cab, it should be damn ex. stupid man , and the aunties doesn't wanna get into the cab, cooping up some excuse saying that dunno whether that one cab anot..
i was sandwiched in the middle, i only can take CITICAB.. crazy bugger, mummbled somthing to himself, and said we siao.. and he went on to the cab, angrly.

wat's wrong with him.. siao . don't he know limo charge the normal rate. if there's only one person.. i got no freaking cash with me if not i would've took the cab, i'm already suffering from severe gastric. no brains.

anyway.. i really enjoy going out with sri. ! if i didn't had gastric i would've probably gone for that massage...

i love going out with sri.

-the complain-

2009-07-15T03:10:00.000-07:00

many of us will only remember the bad things ppl do, a small population will try to rmb good things.. therefore complaint rate is usually higher than compliment. which i really hate ..

after working so hard, taking care of the patient, not a pat on a shoulder , saying thank you.. in return , we get a hard smack on the face , receiving a COMplain letter.

k, the patient passed away 2 months ago, we received the letter, only yesterday, there's only 2 possibilities, either they really cannot get over it, or the bill comes in only ytd, and they cannot get over the bill .. so they decided to dig into the nitty gritty things, hoping that some fees might be waived off.. i'm not saying that everybody does that.. i'm not assuming, there are really scenarios that happens like that..

in the complain letter, it was stated we nurses didn't gave them griefing support.. when so and so pass away.. btw, my friend actually offered chair, and sat thru the whole time with them, if that's not call support, what's that? Chit- chat session or wad?

usually, these kinda things become a big issue, cos family demands an explanation. and our dear SNM, will be damn angry. she would call the ppl involved and interview them..

sometimes thru these kinda events , then we will realise the ugly side of human beings, be it ur colleagues or the ppl who complain u ..

i was actually quite shocked when i heard certain stories of upper hand being 2 headed snake, sa-boing one another, trying to put the blame on other ppl.. its super hypocrit. these kind of ppl said, often, " i have to cover my ass what." what a dumb remark.

i jus hope that this issue will settle down fast, poor friend who is involved in this. is super pissed. i'm not suprise if she throw in a regsination letter within 24 hrs. that's what she said.

jus how, will ppl start to appreciate we nurses, i ponder..

Oo happy bday noi oO

2009-07-14T03:50:00.000-07:00

happy birthday noi!!

ytd, i gave noi a shocking suprise while we were eating at new york, haha.. the waiters brought in the cake and sang happy birthday to her.. with a cake i decorated myself..

pictures are all with noi..

will update soon.. =)

have to go work le.. another 3 nights to go.. really hate it...

i'm tired

2009-07-12T08:51:00.000-07:00

Imagine, after working 8 hours , labour work, in the hospital.. taking care of patients.. hoping that after work, u can meet ur beloved boyfriend. but end up, it's always, " i have to go home early, i dun think i'm meeting u today.." and end up he's with his friends, due to last min changes..

Or, "cannot go home urself meh?"

or worst still..

making me wait for another 1 hour, after my 8 hour shift.. to wait for him. at the station.. cos he had last min plans.. " shyt happens " that's wad he say..

i feel like crying, cos i dunno wad and how to tell him. and once i open my mouth, sure there'll be argument.. true enough, we ended up in heated argument.

u said, that ur friends feel that u r spending too much time with ur gal. , ur gal said tat , u have no time for her.. i know u are sandwiched. but u work mon to fri , sometimes sat with ur colleagues. i only asked u sometimes to acc me home on the way back from ur work. is that asking too much?

i hate it,

i jus wanna be quiet today,

i shoo-ed him home, it's the first time. i really dun wan to, but i have to. cos i wanna be quiet.

my mind is so exhausted after thinking so much.

i know it's a stupid argument someday when we look back....

hubby tan, is it really true that i've taken up too much time in ur life?

thailand + MJ

2009-07-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

i just realised that i've a busy schedule ahead next week..

friend's bday, my medical appt, night shift.. bla bla bla.. i've to work for another 8 days before my off.. can't imagine.

i'm going to thailand with hubby tan and friends! yay! it's actually my very first time going out of the country alone with hubby tan.. only, without my parents without my sis... i'm super excited.. though it's only thailand. ahaha

i still dunno where is the place. that beach that we're going.. i'll have to loose a lot of weight before the day arrives, if not i can't fit into any of the shirts i'm having now.. i've been eating like a cow. seriously.. sometimes i hate the way i'm gorging now.

i can't wait to go shopping for the things to bring to thailand.. with hubby tan..

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ok, it's super late to post about Michael Jackson.. he's dead, alot of ppl can't get over it, i can't imagine myself doing that too.. i dunno why, when he's alive, i've never really listen to his songs..
the first time i know "Beat It" was from last yr Ms SGH D & D one of the remake of the MTV competition.. ever since he's passed on, i actually listen to his songs everynight, automatically.. not that i wanna purposely go and listen, but. i dunno.. songs like, "smile, Heal the World, Black or white, billie jean,... really nice ..

kinda miss the pageant thingy..

we all will miss him. and his wierd moves. whaha..

new book^^

2009-07-07T07:32:00.000-07:00

i was out with noi that ytd.. we're at the mrt .. sitting opp us, was a girl reading this book "Mile Hi! club".. Noi whispered to me. "hey this book is really nice, the author is an ex flight hostess.. of certain airline". i know la.. see the way she combs her hair in the pic. i know it's SIA. obviously.

being an over obsessive air stewardess fan. i told noi, i'm gonna buy tat book. and so we ended up in bugis, and I boughT the bOOK! .. it's super nice to read.. i told hubby tan, he showed the "fu yan" face... ha! wadever~

basically, the book is about the "not so nice, behind the scenes" of being a flight stewardess...

probably after i read the book, i'll find that, maybe flying isn't my kind of job afterall.. it's so complicating and political.. That's why, i failed twice. in the interview.. ..

i didn't noe , that behind the scene of the glamour pretty job, one of their JD is actually cleaning toilets, literally, scrubbing the seats and wiping off urine.. Now, that's scary.. cos at least my job doesn't require us to mops the toilets and .. eeeEks. quite digsusting..

one of my JD requires us to clean assess though. =_=''' but not as bad la. dunno why. probably used to it.

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ytd, hubby tan came over my place for dinner after i pester him so much.. haha.. he told me, that he wanna be an actor, maybe he'll go for interview .. and he told me that MJ was his inspiration to be an actor. OMG, jaw-dropped. i couldn't stand the idea of him being an actor. he'll have to act in love scenes, where it requires him to kiss the actress, although it's jus acting but. !!!!!!!! i totally cannot accept it. CAn u ? OMg.

cos of that. we quarrel abit.

he say, he didn't stop me from going to SIA for interview, it's me who flung the interview .. *ouch*

quite true. anyway, he's not legally my husband yet, he has his own life. i can't stop him from doing the things he like. he's right.

if we're meant to be together , we will. ..

right, hubby tan?

life

2009-07-06T00:57:00.000-07:00

life is full of suprises and uncertainties..

when u wan something so much, u won't get it,
jus when u think u don't want it anymore, it comes back to u ..

life is like a series of drama, so many episodes..

episodes of laughter, tears..

so many characters, who is fake? wh0 is real.. ? nobody noes...
the show jus goes on..

so many ppl we meet, it shaped our lives, making us who we are today..

i've so many things to say, it's too personal that i can't blog.

i hope it's the right decision u've made. =)

xoxo,
valleri

dou ya gardens

2009-07-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

there's even a small snail settling on the plant.

my sis is very proud of her douya garden #1 , so she wan me to post her dou ya plants. in my blog, threatened if i never blog, she destroy my garden of douya #2 ...

it's quite a delayed post actually, me and my sis went to Jp that time , thinking not to spend any money, jus to hang out and eat... end up.... bought a whole load of body shop stuffs, all bcos of her.

there's a mini clearance sale of body shop going on , and being the usual me, I can't resist sale!

esp this month i havent buy anything for myself yet. .. so we splurge..

there's so many things going on now.. my schedule is so packed.!!

went to see Gynae today, the experience is super scary, but glad that everything is fine as of now.. i really hope everything is oki.. =)

i'm turning in now.. tml gotta wake up early for work! nite nite...=)

career

2009-07-02T09:25:00.000-07:00

OMg, what's wrong with blogger, why can't they just settle the picture problem, still can't seem to upload any pics, it's happening to my friends too.. =_='''

recently , i 've been thinking bout my life in poly, how i ever got myself started in nursing, i really dunno,, Nursing is really a damn noble job tat not everyone can actually do... but it's also not as nice as everyone thinks it is..

nobody really understands how a nurse feels. after being scold by her Nurse managers, seniors, colleagues, doctors, patients and patient's family member..

the only reason that i can think of me becoming a nurse, i guess, is a calling from God, i dunno.. soon after i got into nursing , i met lionel, then became a catholic.. everything's linked.

i used to be really afraid of ppl puking, be it, children, babies, adults or drunkards. (I am still afraid now despite being a nurse) .. the extent of me being really afraid of vomits, is crazy. my kness go weak, i start to tremble and sweat like mad. its a phobia.

so, alot of my family members are really shocked when i chose to be a nurse. yet, i still brace thru it, and pass out as a Staff nurse..

looking back at my poly life, i started as a nursing student, learning how to take Bp, vital signs .. till yr 2 , seeing ppl delivering babies.. yr 3 PRCP, handling real cases.. and now finally a staff nurse.. handling life.. it's quite amazing huh?

i miss my polymates.. alot, those days where we hang out doing our projects.. go KFC to eat.. skip lectures.. stress for exams... hhaha.. i don't get to experience that now, after stepping into my career..

really miss the practice sessions with the maniquins .. =)

money

2009-07-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

i'm back to work today!

It's so peaceful in the ward today, how i wish everyday it'll be like that...=) patients are compliant and none of them are in super critical condition.. hehe.. except for one , Sats dropped suddenly.. but able to pick up after that.. on FM 100% ..=)

it's only starting of the month and i'm already worrying bout my money.. that's not a good sign man..;( i really must learn how to manage my finance..

i wanna cancel my yoga thingy but cannot, i wanna enquire bout my prudential.. cannot also, can't i even contact my agent?! dunno where on earth did he went to.. anyway i've emailed the company.. i demand an explanation!

hate it when it comes to money issues..

always quarrel with family because of MONEY

quarrel with hubby tan because of MONEY

cannot go anywhere because of MONEY

why money.? is so important..

last time i use to debate with hubby tan that, why is he so money orientated, everything also talk about earning more money, having money to work for u and not the other way round.. bla bla bla... i used to think that, being rich isn't everything.. u can't buy health, can't buy love. ..

but now.. if u got no money and u're sick, that's it, u'll die.
if u got no money, can't get married, quarrel, no love.

now. i think really, Money is impt.

i just paid of my school fees, it's freaking alot of money.. my pocket burnt.

siao already.

2009-06-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

sumthing's super wrong with blogger. issit jus me or wad? i can't upload any pic, even in other computers..

mini golfing, + sick+ note to my friend

2009-06-28T14:56:00.000-07:00

I dunno what's wrong with freaking blogger, it jus can't seems to upload my pics.

i'll load it once the problem dismiss.

it's now , 6 in the morning, i'm awake since 5am, due to the discomfort in my tummy, the pain and the bloatedness, after much consideration, i've decided to take mc, it's one of the things i hate to fdo most cos despite of being sick, i've to wake up extra early to call night sister, and wait till 7am, to call morning sister.. and get a hearing from them. it's cotradicting, i thought when u're sick u're suppose to rest?

hmmm.. anyway, tummy discomfort started like ytd before the minigolf session with the roomates..

...............Minigolf @ Liliput.

i didn't know their exsistence till ytd, thanx to SY and gang who organise this trip there ytd, it's actually at East coast Big splash, Adult is 18 bucks.. it's worth the money man. cos we stayed there practically half a day.. hhaha jus completing 18holes.

it's really quite fun and exciting.. gets a bit tiring though...

after that , we went to ate at KFC, then that's when my giddiness and headache starts, thereafter we took a cab to Tampiness mall for TRANSFORMERS.! woo hoo.. the whole movie was super shaky, but nice, soooo in love with Bumble bee. i'm sure Hubby Tan is too.. it's he's 2nd time watching this movie.

he's dream is to buy that car. the chevolet Camaro
shouting to hubby tan : make it come true then !

after that, we went back home.. and hubby tan sayang me all the way cos of my tummy discomfort and headache.

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To my friend,

sometimes, life is full of surprises that is good in a way if u look at it,

certain things happened for a reason..

life is full of choices and decisions..

that will affect ur path.. in the future and now..

cherish it, for u only have it once

love it , while u have it now.

don't regret when it's gone.

let this be a lesson for u .. to grow even stronger and mature..

i love u no matter what decision u made

friend. =)

hubby tan, i love u more and more as days passes by..

hetic , luvs

2009-06-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

In just a twink of eye, my 2 days off jus pass by and i've been back to the ward for 2 days, tml i'm off again..=)

.. firstly.. wanna thank chong who treat us ! Thai food, thai express at plaza sing.. was quite nice.. and cheap too! unfortunately no pics, nobody actually brought camera to take picture..

was tempted to buy things from cotton on, and etude, but i stopped myself la.. to waste unecessary money.. *yay*

back to the ward, sometimes i really think that, the room i'm in charge in, Room 24, is really cursed, it's super hetic again..

the first day i went back to work after my rest day, i was Pm shift, i took over from another staff who was relatively new, i can understand that she'll need more time to adapt .. but, it's too much for me to handle, i've to do changes for both morning and afternoon .. so . who's gonna help me?
i believe it's all about prioritising, if u can't set ur priorities right, u can't work accordingly and u will never finish work on time ever, no matter how senior u are.

that's how i learn, to do the more impt changes first.. thanx to kak yan who taught me that. =)

on that day, i had 3 empty beds, that means new admissions.. i have 3 sick patients, 1 is active, it's excatly the same as the previous sick patient i had who recently passed on.. his skin is super bad, to the extent that it'll tear once u move it.. literally skin tear.. he's wrapped up with jelonet the whole body.. he's super sick.

i'm so stressed that i really feel like jus walking out of the ward and tell sister i'm not feeling well... that stressed! i wanted to cry already, but realised that crying won't solve any problem and running away from problem is not a solution.. so i grit my teeth and work.

with God's grace, i managed to finish my work on time! and my patients were all safe and sound.. Praise the lord!

i have to say , that there's no quality of care delivered to patients, if we have lack of staff.. the thing is we just wanna make sure that we finish our work on time and we don't pass unecessary things to other colleagues , we jus rush thru our work.. and it will definetly affect our attitudes towards patients..

on the other hand, if we had more staff, which i experience before.. we'll have more patience and we'll deliver more precise and quality care to patients and we are able to attend to their needs..

this is one of the few problems we nurses face, always.. Lack of staff. i really hope that staffing will improve in the future... =)

today, i spent a wonderful cuddly cuddly day with hubby tan, i really hope there're more time spent like this with him.. =)

*lurves*

hubby tan, hunny koh miss u already now..

spendthrift

2009-06-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

woohoo~

guess wad? i'm afternoon shift today, went to work and was asked to take leave for 2 days cos there's too many staff working today and tml~! anyway, i wasn't feeling very well too, had palpitation, and running nose and slight cough..
i was jus complaining to hubby tan that i haven got much rest and slp.. now i can slp all i want!

super happy!

oh ya, due to the excessive white hair appearing, and i've been receiving lots of irritating comments like,

" hey, u shld go dye ur hair , all ur white hair can be seen."
" have u been thinking alot recently?"
" are u stressed?"
" ur white hair are so visible.."

i've decided to dye my hair. and yes, i've done it..

GOodbye white hair!

=D nowadays i've been wondering shld i perm my hair, cos i look so boring, my hair is jus straight, can't do much bout it, so i consulted the hair dresser, upon seeing that i was so intereted in curling ,out of kindness , he help me to curl my hair temporarily, which really look nice..
but i've yet to decide whether to perm permanently..

recently, i've been spending uncontrollably, even though i'm really financially down. i must learn to control.. haiz, if not i can forget bout getting my car license, OR getting married, buying house and stuff..

i keep spending on unecessary stuffs like panties and bras, i get very super excited (don't think i'm a pervert pls) all the laces and patterns , it's jus so nice that i really wan them all.. though i can only wear one at a time.. hahah

.. when i see there's sales going on in La Senza or Cotton on..i wld automatically go into the shop, cos it all means, cheap lingeries.. and really nice wans.. not like those pasar malam kind.. but the thing is i have a lot of it already , i dun need to buy anymore..

things like body lotions, hand cream, lip balm and glosses, or mascara, i haven fininsh using one and yet i wanna buy some more, what's wrong with me,? i don't think there's any other girl as crazy and spendthrift as me..

my lip gloss collection (from left clinque, lancome, sally hansen, sasa, jap brand, maybelline)

my mascara collection ( from left, Etdude, Rimmel, Maybelline, fiberwig, bodyshop)

my creams ( from left top, sasa, ralph lauren, jergens, baby johnson, bodyshop, vaseline)

my lip balm collection ( palmer, vaseline..)
actually i still have alot i jus dunno where i place it..

*Valleri u have to stop spending like there's no tommorrow. *
somebody shld slap my face to ask me to wake up.

ytd, went out with loveliest,
to celebrate ranji belated bday and santhya's 17 bday.. went to vivo "Thai Accent" to eat .. quite nice , but super ex.. haha.. pictures are all with rumya, she hasn't uploaded yet..

Happy bday ranji and santhya!

i'm missing my hubby tan alot ..

plss vote for my sis!

2009-06-21T01:37:00.000-07:00

.. i dunno how many ppl would actually read my blog.. but .. to ppl who read.. kindly vote for my sis ..=)) for the watson contest, she's in the healthy skin category..~!
vote for her~!!!

She's D2.. Shuyee

pretty? =)

*vote her*

thank u for supporting..

a long post..

2009-06-21T01:08:00.000-07:00

past 2 days i was on owl shift.. and things didn't seem quite well for me..

first nite, i was feeling bit unwell.. 3 of my patient's oxygen level dropped below normal range, which gimme quite a scare.. .. tried to calm them down and gave them oxygen , finally it slowly picked up...

2nd nite, before going to work , had a huge quarrel with hubby tan which end up him leaving me at the junction of the road, going to work myself.. didn't felt good... it's my fault anyway, don't wish to elaborate, at the same time, i had diarrhea 5 times.. and felt super bloated.. dunno wad's wrong.. ok. now jus when i thought that it's all over.

when i stepped into the ward, i guess, i've brought the negativity aura to the ward , i've not yet started shift, my pt's maid came running to me telling me that pt has difficulty breathing and is having cold sweats. so i asked my colleague to check his oxygen sats as i have to attend a short roll call..

when i came back, i saw them pushing the Emergency trolley .. and there's quite a bit of commotion going on.. went in and saw the pt, vomiting fresh bld.. eyes were rolling up.. and look as pale as sheet.. for a moment, i thought he's sure a goner...

however, praise the lord, he survived through my shift.. maybe waiting for me .. tonight, my last night..

strange as it can be.. life is jus like a thin thread, a moment ago, u r fine, then next moment, God decides ur time is up.. i'm going bring u away.. scary but true..

i have so many things to accomplish, that i dunno whether a lifetime will be enough for me.. i really wish i could travel round the world to see so many things.. i've come to a decision, hubby tan always asked me to try internet marketing which can really help me to earn some cash..
i really dunno how true it is, but sure there's live testimonials that i can see.. that is happening to his friends..

but i have least a bit of interest in it..

for the sake of doing the things i like, guess i'll have to .. u know, sacrifice.

i wanna travel to countries .. to see their cultures, to experience new things.. since i can't be a flight attendant, guess i've to find some other way..

i wanna learn how to drive, buy my own car, not necessary need to be a big car, jus a normal one will do.. so that i don't need to waste my money on Cab..

i wanna have my own room, own pink room, decorate myself, have my own shirts, dresses, cupboards, lingeries, not to share with my sis.. i really wanna have one, before i get married.. if not, i wouldn't have a chance to decorate my own little cosy shack.

i finish my degree.. specialise in probably, midwifery and paeds

i wanna bring my family. my granny esp. to travel, while she can.. i really love her alot as she's the only one who supports me when everything seems not to go my way...

so many things, so little time, so many aspirations, so little money..

is a lifetime enough for me?

new braces. new stuffs.. =)

2009-06-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

haiz, i didn't get my lower brace done, cos Dr said that my upper teeth still didn't shift enough .. so i have to wait another 6 more weeks.. boohoo.. that's like in AUG. but i changed the rubber band colours~!

after that went out with Rum to search for ranji's present.. BTW .. HAPppy biRthday to Ranjini~! =D went to eat at NYDC, can't really eat anything.. ordered Lagsane.. *freaking painful now*, cos amazingly after one day the teeth really shifted..

instead of choosing her present.. i kept choosing my own stuff, though i'm really broke to the max.. i still bought 2 frilly bras from COTTON ON. super comfy each for 5 bucks, also, a CHOMEL small crystal clip for 2 bucks and 2 shirts from FOX for 9 bucks each.. totally spent = 25 bucks. woohooo.. huge savings.. totally love it.. =D

after taat i met hubby tan to watch movie, "ghost of girlfriend's past" quite a nice show.. really for guys to watch..

had a long chat with hubby tan on the way home, talking bout marriage and stuffs...alot of obstacles.. but i believe we'll make it thru and get married some day.. =)

i just love him, the way he is and how he's loving me.. that's why i choose to stay..

due to boredom.. i

2009-06-17T04:40:00.003-07:00

i'm super bored~!

i actually found out that this choc, is super nice and it's damn cheap oki.. only 80cents. =PpP.. should try it.. it's recommended by edwin..=)

came back from work this afternoon, actually quite tired wanted to take a nap but felt like if i were to take a nap now, i wouldn't be able to slp later at night.. so i... BAKED COOKIES~!

again.. okie, actually it's because of Dr victoria's big chewy cookies, she baked and brought to work and gave me one.. it's so yummy.. =) so i decided to try it..

in the end. it failed , terribly.. i dunno why.. i followed the receipe.. carefully.. i did.. it turned out like this..

like mouldy "kueh"

but it's sweet and tasty eh, i threw the rest of the mixture away and started to try another receipe.. " cutout cookies"

i actually modified the receipe a bit , added some candies, almond and choc chips.. and it turned out.... TAdda~!

nice ?
not only tasted sweet and cripsy, looked nice too~!

should i give the cookies to Hubby tan?

~ updates

2009-06-13T19:16:00.001-07:00

12/06/09

me and my sis.. waiting for the watson contest.

she got in ..I didn't get in .. =( i think mainly because of my braces..whatever la.. anyway, i met a new fren there.. her name is Marilene.. =) super funny and straightforward girl.. same like me .. bRacES~! but she's taking out soon..

13/06/09

anyway , moving on.. i had family gathering.. super tired but fun ..~! ate super alot.. i think i'm gonna put on dunno how many pounds.. we went to er yi house to BBQ.. with hubby tan.. woah~
i actually ate really alot.. after that my uncle went to buy durians.. then eat again. hhahaha..

my ah ma says.. eat durian must also eat mangosteen to reduce the heatiness..

A small part of my family

"Wolverine" helping my with the bbq ..

sis,ed, ken, playing the cashless monopoly..

"Huat ah~!"

i was quite surprised that there's this new thing call the cashless monopoly.. u know, we use to play monopoly, someone has to be the banker, and count the money.. pay the mortgage and everything, so irritating, now it's all sort out ! Each player will be given a credit card where there's a certain amt of value inside, if they wanna buy a house, they'll have to swipe the card into this electronic machine and deduct the money.~! super cool eh. haha
i love the bbq outting! need to organise somemore.. hee hee

14/06/09

was off on this day.. didn't had enough slp cos mum keep askin me to eat dim sum with them together in the morning, so woke up at 9 am.. T-T.. super tired.. thot of meetin hubby tan after that, but mum ask me to acc them to Jp, cos ah ma is around .. then i have to acc her ... anyway, things are super cheap eh. cos of the GSS, but. haiz, i got no money to spend la.. =(

after that still went to meet hubby tan cos at around 830 we're attending Jaz sis wedding..didn't take any pics. haah. cos didn't feel like it.. we were sitting at the VIP table where we can't see anything on stage. haha. how ironic, i thot we suppose to be able to see clearly.. but niwayz. the whole table consist of many unknown ppl to me ..

things that they talk about .. i also dunno.. haha.. ignore.. i only talked to pekkie.. wanna go thailand together .~!! beaching and shopping.. but dunno whether the July AL slot i'll be able to go overseas AND whether i have enough money for myself..

i'm actually pondering over some things.. i was yearning to get married .. maybe at age of 24 25, but after hearing certain things.. i'm so afraid now.. and can guys be trusted? What is marriage to some ppl? it's so scary.....

teapot

2009-06-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

hubby tan jus said that "i'm a little teapot short and stout." cos i took the bad genes of my parents while my sis took the good genes..:

my dad- tall and fat

my mum- short and slim

me -short and fat!!!

my sis slim and tall!!!

unfair~! super duper unfair...

=(

forget it, no use thinking bout it .. truth is it'll never change.. haha

had a heart to heart talk with my besti today.. been so long since we talk.. bout some things la.. time really flies, i still rmb the first time we know each other was during sec 2 .. that's like donkey years ago when we're still struggling with our O and N levels.. getting all stressed up with our discipline mistress.. haha.. super funny .. miss the old days actually..

as we grow older, we grew apart, cos of the different hobbies that we like.. she's a person who really loves having fun , while i'm a boring person who's always busy with work.. haha.. that's why we seldom meet up.. but i'm glad she still treat me as a best friend.. =) and we still enjoy hanging out togather..

noi. u're my best friend!

worries

2009-06-08T02:35:00.000-07:00

I just finished work and came back home, been quite busy the past few days.. never slept well too.. the dark circles are seriously popping out.. see.

ignore the blouse pls, it's some aunty looking pj. =P ... see. i've been bothered by so many things that i didn't rest well .. keep working that's why i end up having big eyebags and triple eye lids in one side of my eye.. =x

list of things that bothers me recently:
1. hubby tan since that day , the things that he said.. keep thinking bout it..
2. watson contest
3. clinique contest
4. curtin school fees (in need of large sum of money within short period of time)
5. sudden loss of bonus
6. school time table and requests..
7. my weight..
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so on ..

some things are quite unnecessary but.. still it's bothering me..
sometimes when it's time to slp , i jus can't slp, i'm super tired .. but can't fall asleep , and i can't eat piriton if the next day i'm working morning.. i'll be knocked out.

actually i'm suppose to meet up with SSN they all for farewell dinner for wan and fiq. leaving for NS.. but i really can't , been going out alot last week after work, my parents KB already.. so i jus stay at home lor.. so many of them leaving.. Abu also leaving for NS. haz quiting, rodo transfering out.. so sian..i'm also planning to leave but still deciding.. leave for KKH.

bothered by my fees for curtin because.. I HAVE NO BONUS THIS YR.
super irritating.. we worked like shit, sweat like hell with the PPE and N95. risk of getting infected with H1N1. yet we don't get extra. seriously overworked under paid. i'm so worried bout the fees cos curtin says we have to submit the money by 16 june, which is like in a weeks time. where the hell can i get the money.? i tried asking my mum to lend me, i'll slowly pay her back, she not only do not want to help, she also said, " no money don't study la". what's wrong with her? super irritating. i have no choice but to borrow from my granny. i really don't want to ... she's so old already... ...

sometimes i dun understand why my granny is so different from my mum, i told my granny bout my situation, she totally understands .. i told her i will definately pay her back , monthly basis. she says," take ur time, no need to pay also can.. most imptly u must study hard, if u study hard don't pay me back also can... " i was so touched by her. . but i felt guilty borrowing money from her.... thanx granny!

next.. hubby tan recently told me that he will consider to work at his uncle company which might require him to travel very often.. but the pay is good.. i'm not sure how good it is la.. but i have no say for this.. if it really happens then probaby this is the way we'll communicate. haha...

......
i'm gonna stop here, damn tired already.. yawnzZ.. time to slp.. nite..!

!!biscotti!!

2009-06-05T19:57:00.000-07:00

was off ytd.. so bored that i decieded to .. bake some cookies before i meet hubby tan.. planned to meet him at 8pm due to his heavy workload..

started making cookies at 6 plus.. rush down to NTUC to buy the ingredients.. then prepare..

btw, i'm baking orange choco chips cookies..

i cannot find the mixer machine.. dunno where my mum keep, so i use my own hands to beat the batter.. and mix and mix.. super tired..

i've covered my tired ugly face.. wahaha.. .. here's the creamy mixture..

cookies are ready to be baked in the oven... actually after a while it didn't seems to be so nice.. it all spread and flattened.. i was so afraid that it will turn out to be inedible...

but, it turn out to be quite oki.. not really very fantastic though, it tasted cripsy on the outside, chewy in the inside.. =)

presented these cookies to hubby tan.. he tasted.. and... the verdict was..

"it's a different taste.. unique.. with a tinge of orange flavour.. i like.."

Thank you kiss from hubby tan.. to hunny koh! he said i look more and more like a thai girl.. do i? i say probly he've seen too much of thai girls in thailand trip.. =P alright, gotta rush to work now.. irritating.. ciaoz.

outtin~!

2009-06-02T09:27:00.001-07:00

.. after much tears wasted ytd, i couldn't slp.. took 2 piriton since 1 doesn't work on me... fell asleep .. and guess wad?!

couldn't wake up the next morning.. woke up only at 1230pm, supposedly, i planned to go running at 9am, then meet hubby tan at 11AM acc him to see eye appt..

all cancelled..

however, i went out with .. my FRENS!

getting ready to go..

met Shah at bugis .. looking for feathers.. for her mum.. din manage to find it.. initially wanted to watch movie, but cancelled.. cos we went sakae sushi.. and ate....

and ate..

then we walk around and chat and i bought... some blouse and one jeans jumper.. and some tiny missy key chain.. u knw when i'm feeling down, i kinda spend more on uneccessary things.. do u ? =P

finally went to TCC for "Desert" haha.. that's wad Di calls Dessert.. haha..

ate some sinful choc cake

here's Seandi's boring marble cake.. haha

we end the day with a group photo!

some interesting quote that we saw on a badge: "Treat Your Children Good, as They'll be the one choosing your Nursing Home in the future " ..

scary but true~!

take it or leave it..

2009-06-01T10:27:00.000-07:00

..it's suppose to be a happy day..
.. it wasn't wad i wanted...
..why did it turn out this way..
..why didn't we move on and get over it..
...why does history keeps repeating itself..

...it has to be me..
...the problem always lie in me...
...i dun understand why...

..i'm tired..
..physically due to "after night shift"
..emotionally due to..............

...i'm really tired.
...confuse..
...angry..
..sad..
..whatever..

.it's all mixed up.

..how ..? how do we mend a broken heart ?
..how do we act as if nothing ever happened?
..how to erase the words that u said ?
..it's ringing in my ear..
..it's hurting me..

~~.u hurt me.~~

I hate u
But
I love u

somebody, stop the tears from dropping..

finally.

2009-05-31T21:00:00.000-07:00

why?

why do i keep blogging these few days.. the only reason that i can think of is, i've nobody to talk to .. since my hubby tan went to thailand... he'll be back today.. hooray~! *clap hands*

i'm damn angry with skype. i didn't know there's this function "auto recharge " which is, they will auto top up your skype credit if it is less than $2.00, it will top up another $10.. =( money will be deducted from your credit card.. it's madness, when i sign up for it , i didn't even see this function.. dear suggested to email to them to ask for refund, but i couldn't even find a single contact email.... haiz... waste my money jus like tat... *SAD*

nufff' said bout the "skype tragedy"..

talk bout more happy stuff.. i finally got myself a LongChamp bag.. yay ! i've been deciding it for quite sometime.. and finally i bought it.. and I'm LoVing it!

Now Valleri is a happy little girl.. hee hee.. i'ma go slp now.. cos i went to orchard after my nite shift jus to get this bag.. muahaha...

nite nite..

counting down ..

2009-05-31T03:17:00.000-07:00

Counting down to 1 more day
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to the return of hubby tan and the end of my night shift.

can't wait totally!

cheeze with braces..

fatigue.

2009-05-29T18:15:00.000-07:00

me. super tired, eye bags.

..i jus came back from owl shift, showered at hospital.. been thru a crazy night with full of I/V anti biotics.. 4 hourly IVs plus hypocount monitoring.. can u imagine?!

sometimes, nursing HIV patients can be quite sad, a person who doesn't look like he has AIDS, who can walk and joke, super friendly, after 2 months, totally bed ridden, with bedsores all over.. broken skins.. smelly, suken face.. tubes all over, bld to be taken daily.. almost near to drowsy state....

it only means.. " better be safe then sorry "

not trying to be educational here.. but, i feel alot for these kinda patients.. i believe all nurses do, we get to see the whole progress of HIV, how scary it can be, it's not wad normal ppl can accept..

nuff' said bout this disease.. moving on..

i was working night with one of my Philippines fren, she jus came back from her country, she seems different when i spoke to her, listless, tired, puffy eyes, lost a whole lot of weight..! later that night, i initiated to talk to her, asking her what's wrong.. .. ....

she then told me, her boyfriend broke up with her just, yesterday.. over the phone.. they were together 5 years.. wad the?! she's a super nice girl.. she keep asking me, " what shld i do, i'm very sad, i tried calling him, almost 100 TIMES, he didn't ans... i kept crying and crying..... "

omg,i really dunno how to comfort her........ T-T if this was me, i would've died..

next, jus before i knock off, someone has to irritate me, early morning, not the doctors, not my patients, not my NC, but it has to be my colleague... early in the morning blaming the night staff, "why didn't top up the gown , now got no gown must go store to take... haiyyah!!"

i'm super irritated, here i am trying to gather them to pass report, now.. someone has to do that.. and i'm already not feeling very well, stomach super pain.. don't they understand that we have alot of things to do at night.. yes , i admit we did surf net at times, but it's only for like 10 mins, while we're resting our legs.. =(

works over, get over it val..

ytd, i went shopping with my sis at JP, and she asked me to join this watson unique u contest with her.. in order to join, we need to buy certain things and get the receipt, post our pictures online.. so i bought this....

Rimmel sexy curve mascara

actually we wanted to buy a body shop white musk lotion for my auntie, end up buying some other things for myself, eye gel- claims that it'll reduce puffiness, get an instant fresh eyes..
so .. total loots of the day..

Sally hansen lip inflation

body shop eye gel

Rimmel sexy curve

waste money or wad now?!

nonsense.. i haven post my pics online.. currently this are the two pics that i've consider to put.. dunno whether can anot...

that's close up

that's full length.

KK, that's all, i'm going to fall asleep...will update on the contest.. =)

trust

2009-05-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

It's Day 2 hubby in thai.. i skyped with him jus now.. and he told me bout wad happened..
He learnt how to speak in thai for the no. 1 to 10 ! haha... funny .. sort of miss him, but upset bout wad happened ytd.. niwayz, it's some private matters...

sometimes, working can make u forget the unhappy things, hanging around with friends, soothe us alot.. i'm glad that i didn't take leave today and went to work as usual...

work was hetic. stupid consultant came and see the patients so freaking late and all the changes were last min.. hate it.. i had to talk to one irritating family member, who wants everything stat!

"i want the x ray to be done now!"

"why is my mom's treatment delayed?"

"no excuses! it's ur hospital's fault..!"

Hey what's wrong with their F*cking brain, if they wan stat treatment, jus admit them into private hospital.. they are much more efficient right ?!

i can understand that they are anxious for their family members, but why can't they jus talk politely.. we are already trying our best to satisfy their needs, it's frustrating when these sort of things happens...

but thanks to all these problems, i can temporarily forget the problem i have with hubby tan..

Dearest hubby Tan,

How do u expect me to trust u ?

miss you..

2009-05-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

Back from work!

Today was relaxed! never been so relaxed after so long at work.. i've got 3 staff with me.. =) 3 empty beds, waited for them to admit, but surprisingly, none came in .. i'm morning tml, there'll sure be admission! hate it when they admit early in the morning..

OH GOSH.. i must try to lose weight, i'm putting on tons of weight, i'm getting to lazy and greedy.. i need to exercise badly!

My hubby tan , has flown to Thailand with his group of frens.. to celebrate one of his friend's bday.. after intoxicating him with how scary and fast H1N1 spreads and that ther's 2 +ve cases in thailand, still he went.. what's worst is that, he has flu symptoms even before he went.. what if he come back with fever, he need to be quarrantined!

i'm already missing him.. it's only Day 1.

i know it sounds crazy.. but still, i miss him... there's still 5 more days to go..

he always tell me, how can i be a flight attendent when even 5 days of not meeting him feels so terrible.. .. =P

i've always envy flight stewardess, but i know each job has it's own pros and cons.. i always browse thru my facebook looking at some of my friends, who are "flying".. looking at the pictures they took in different countries..

i failed twice in the interview, i really dunno wad went wrong.. maybe it's destined that i shouldn't join the cabin crew.. i dunno.. that's y i'm stuck in nursing... anyway, i'm ending it here.. gotta wake up at freaking 5 am tml .. .zZzzzzZz

...i miss you...

happy 4th year anniversary..

2009-05-25T22:34:00.000-07:00

After working 9 days, i finally have 3 off days, on the first day off, i did "project lionel tan"..(it's a gift for hubby tan for our 4 yr anni) completed within 6hours straight.. was quite happy with the end product ! anyway, hubby tan really loved it~! and it comes with a CD .. - it's named " The 30 Reasons" he was over excited, and speechless , and he posted on youtube....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vot8AFd3gN0

On my 2nd off day...
we checked in to Hotel Re! , a damn well furnished , small hotel.. big plasma TV, innovative designs..retro theme.. very comfy and cosy.. =) finally had some time to spend with him.. *smiles*

time seems to fly pass when u're enjoying happy moments with your darling.. we slept for a while , woke up at 7 and left for bugis to watch "night of the museum II" quite a funny show but also very predictable.. wld rate it, 4/ 10..

after that initially i suggested to sing k, anyway, we've never sing k together as a couple before, but .. hubby wasn't feeling too good, was sniffing and coughing all the way, and had a temperature.. so we head back to the hotel..

when i entered the hotel room.. it was crazy, i saw a bunch of baby blue roses, with a cute teddy bear tied on to it! i was super suprised, didn't expect it! and i didn't know how the hell did he arrange these with no phone calls made while he's with me.. ... then he said," why don't u look elsewhere.."

It's a beautiful necklace with a couple ring..damn nice.. the whole feeling was like a proposal thingy, cos there's flowers, bear, ring and necklace.. next is a hug and kiss from him! Love him till bits.. overjoyed upon seeing the prezzies..=))) *winks*

next comes his present! he's equally excited.. =) i've been dropping some hints before the anniversay.. haha.. upon receiving the gift.. he.. was lost for words.. totally, jus that his tear ducts are too dry to produce some tears, but actually, he's super touched.. ......

look how he focus on the album.. heheh..

happy baby! *luvs*

[It's not about how expensive the presents are, it's about how u took time
to plan for a suprise and make effort to choose the beautiful flowers and ring for me.........]

Happy 4th year anniversary to us.. and there'll be more anniversaries to come.. I love you!

my inner fear..

2009-05-23T23:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i had a super wierd dream, super scary that i woke up suddenly..

i dreamt that i went for a routine bodycheck, they took a CXR, eye check and body check la.. when i was waiting for my report, i saw the doctors whispering among themselves looking at me as though i'm contagious..

so i went forward and ask them, how's my result...

one of them told me i had large patches showing on my CXR and apparently there's some bacti growing in my lungs and it seems quite serious..

my eyes show early signs of cataract, there's some greyish stuff covering abit of my pupil.. and he said that i had to go for EOT to remove it else i'll be blind..

i asked them wad''s my diagnosis they refuse to tell me, they ask me to wait for their consultant.. i was so worried, scared... ... .. ...... then i woke up..

... the only reason that i can think of me having this crazy dream is that i face my own patients too much , so much so that i keep dreaming of this wierd dreams.. i've seen them being so sick and it makes me so afraid of falling sick.. .. that's how the dream came about..

anyway.. i'm continuing my "project lionel tan", deadline is tml.. i'm so dead...

irritated

2009-05-23T07:04:00.000-07:00

i'm really quite irritated by blogger .. it's crazy.. sometimes the pictures can't be place properly in the enteries.. what's wrong..

** frustrated**

today is the 9th day i'm working.. >_< super tired already.. finally i'm having a 3 days break.. yay! before i start my shity work again..

next mon and tues i'll be celebrating my 4th year anniversary with hunny bee.. hmm i'm sure it's gonna be a super romantic one.. =) i'm currently working on "project lionel tan".. it's a gift i made for him... hee hee..

wonder will he like it..

he's super busy this 3days.. working.. today he told me bout his fortune telling from a friend which is apparently very accurate... it says...

he'll be leading a very stressed-up life only towards the end of his life then he will make a wise investment.. oh boy.~ how? i really wish that the fortune tellin thing doesn't come true...

i'm surfin the net to look out for any nice place to go during the celebration.. i'm cracking my brain, i still can't find wads nice to do in s'pore. it's such a boring place..

and when will the H1N1 virus stop. i wanna go overseas.. =( and stop that auditing.. it's irritating.. i really feel like slapping the auditor's face and tell her , "i'm busy at the moment why don't u go audit my SNM!"

restarting..

2009-05-23T06:19:00.000-07:00

.. i cannot believe it..
my previous enteries are deleted.. =(

i have to restart blogging again..
anyway.. nevermind, put aside that.. let's start from monther's day, which is like super long ago..

i'd always wanted to blog but the stupid bloggin system is kuku..

on mother's day, we went to Pariss to eat the buffet dinner.. yummz..
was okie.. not that fantastic but overall it's okie la.. the cake was great! and most imptly it's free... hahah... it's the first time i tried oyster. damn it's disgusting okie.. it was lionel tan's idea..

anyway the mother's day celebration was great.. a reunion with my cousins in m'sia.. and sarah is super cute!

say cheese and blow...... ~!!!

... yes.. i was disgustingly tanned.. and burnt badly after celebrating tini's bday the previous day.. was actually my sleeping day but didn't manage to slp.. they've influenced me into branded bags.. i so wanna buy a longchamp.. and a gucci. but unfortunately .. i'm taking my degree this yr so YAY! i'm broke. -_-'''

i'm super tanned and ugly now.